yes,they've got me. you know,THEM. the capitalists. capitalizing on the fact that i love that movie fellowship of the ring so much i want 'more'. and the only way to get more,really,is to get a dvd player.
and i know nothing about dvd players,so i'm just beginning to learn.
i'm wondering if i do get a dvd player will i have to get a new tv to watch it? my tv is about 15 years old and has only one inlet (is that the opposite of outlet? that's what i mean...) in the back of it. on the other hand,i guess inlets ARE outlets. er,i think...(i'm not going to scramble my brain over that one...plenty of other things to scramble it with)
i wonder if my mom will leave her tv here when she moves out? maybe i will inherit it as some compensation for paying mom's rent all these months?
i almost feel evil thinking that.right now we are looking into assisted living situations. actually,mom would probably want her tv...when she's home it's on all the time (which drives me crazy) and she even goes to sleep by the hum of it...she sleeps on the couch so she can do that. i guess it's her heroin or something...could be worse.
anyway,i am going to sit down and look at my money situation and see if there is any money left from the $1000 dad gave me for my birthday that i didn't use to pay rent already!
i want a dvd player but i also don't intend to go into debt or even put it on a credit card...i can't afford to make credit card payments anyway. as it is,i am thinking i might just be able to squeak by living alone which would be great if i could do it. i'd enjoy having this place to myself and i'd like to stay here if the landlord lets me take over the lease.of course if he decided to raise the rent i wouldn't be able to,since i'm really cutting it so close. i'm even thinking with all the money i'm saving not eat an evening sugary snack and no chocolate and maybe if i stop eating sugar...well,that would give me more money.
when i was younger, i would occasionally skip meals so i could see a band on the weekend,but i'm too old to do that,plus i use to weigh a lot more than i do now so i could afford to skip a meal!
to tell you the truth,i'm excited at the prospect of living alone if i can manage it,even if it means i will have very little money. just having my space in my own home gives me so much peace of mind. and when i want to crank up the stereo while i'm doing my oh so tedious chore of brushing and flossing (i hate it...can you tell? and i have to spend fifteen minutes twice a day to do the job properly after eating my two meals,so i don't lose all my teeth...they are so delicate! that helps me to not snack too...it's too much trouble to have to do the teeth thing afterwards!) or when i first get up in the morning to wake me up
and get me going (since i can't drink coffee because of my stomach)
one of my bosses said to me one day a few months ago 'you have so many problems it's unbelievable' yup. but i'm slowly working on just integrating them into my life so they are no longer problems,if that makes sense. the teeth thing isn't a huge problems...but it's a royal pain in the a** between the hygiene time needed as well as money spent every six months for having cavities taken care of...even though i have insurance,they only pay partially and there's 10% less coverage becuase my dentist isn't in their damned network but i keep going to this dentist because he's good at what he does,his staff is great and i always feel relaxed there...which is saying a lot for a dentist's office!....and not only that,he's right down the street so i dont have to do yet more travelling on my day off. my last bill was $80 which is a lot when basically you have no money to spare. i must be a miracle worker to have managed on so very little all these months...which reminds me,i need to set some money aside to take mom out to the chinese place for her birthday...she loves to go out to eat even more than she loves tv (and to be fair to her,she's not really such a dull person...she loves to play piano and for a few years before she had to sell the house we grew up in,she had an old baby grand piano that my grandmother had bought for her. it sounded beautiful. i have a recording that i made on one of those cheapo tape recorders of her playing one of my favorite songs.it's called 'spoon river' and i know very little about it except that it was in one of my mother's piano books and i love it. it's an incredibly complex piece of music to play,and it's very emotional...does that mean it's in a minor key? well, i know so little about music theory. my mom is also a very talented seamstress,even now. she once made all her kids and a few other people costumes for the bicentennial of the town i grew up in. i had a gorgeous dress with a hoop skirt and my mom had a bustle...which my baby sister hid under because she was shy! oh,how i do go on....
gotta get ready for work!