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bluegreen17) wrote2003-04-13 02:26 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-04-13 02:26 pm
how to find the light? how to love?
i'm having a self-hating or at least hating-the-demons-in-my-head episode and i know that hating it just perpetuates it. and i'm trying to figure out how to love. when i feel like this i feel like i can't love anything or anyone. as i get older, i feel like i am able to love less and less,and that is the most important thing to do in this world...and i feel i can't do it. that feels hellish.
anyway,i found this quote and it can be applicable to different situations...a current world situation is obvious...but also on a personal scale.
in my mixedupness,i'm trying. i'm trying to find the light that's hidden in me. i don't know why it gets obscured and blotted out so often. i know it's gotta be there or i wouldn't exist.
i so often know the what but have trouble finding the how. and i dont know where to look for help.
yesterday i had a pretty good day once i got going. and life crashed down on me hard again this morning and is at the moment pinning me down pretty low. i'm still breathing,though.
"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. Hate multiplies hate, violence multiplies violence, and toughness multiplies toughness in a descending spiral of destruction.... The chain reaction of evil -- hate begetting hate, wars producing more wars -- must be broken, or we shall be plunged into the dark abyss of annihilation. -- Martin Luther King, Jr.
anyway,i found this quote and it can be applicable to different situations...a current world situation is obvious...but also on a personal scale.
in my mixedupness,i'm trying. i'm trying to find the light that's hidden in me. i don't know why it gets obscured and blotted out so often. i know it's gotta be there or i wouldn't exist.
i so often know the what but have trouble finding the how. and i dont know where to look for help.
yesterday i had a pretty good day once i got going. and life crashed down on me hard again this morning and is at the moment pinning me down pretty low. i'm still breathing,though.
"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. Hate multiplies hate, violence multiplies violence, and toughness multiplies toughness in a descending spiral of destruction.... The chain reaction of evil -- hate begetting hate, wars producing more wars -- must be broken, or we shall be plunged into the dark abyss of annihilation. -- Martin Luther King, Jr.