remembering now

[bluegreen17]

just forget all that stuff i said in the last posts. i always feel apologetic about feeling bad and expressing it. that's how it is with me a lot. i wish it was like that less often. the circumstances of my life haven't changed much as of today,but you know there are miracles like books and music and the people who create them and/or tell you about them. and people's kind words and thoughtfulness. so,today,at least for now,i'm happy. when i'm unhappy,i forget that i sometimes am happy. it's hard to remember because i'm unhappy much more than i'm happy.

some hindu philosophy in a book called happy yoga reminded me of some things and enlightened me about others. my sister sara solarfields reminded me of the love i have around me,and encouraged me,as did numerous friends online and in person. for this,i am grateful.