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bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-25 08:49 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-25 08:49 pm
mom's illness is scaring me
we just had a little incident here and out of desperation i have written the following email to my four sisters...two live fairly close by,one lives about an hour away,and one lives in pennsylvania.
i can't really deal with much more of this...
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hi everybody,
i really hate to even bring this up,but i am getting really scared here and don't know what to do.
mom was just eating one of her chocolate ice cream pops that she eats tons of and she started choking horribly...i didn't really know what to do...it's not really a matter of giving her the heimlich maneuver because i don't think anything gets stuck like that...but she is choking and hardly able to breath. i didn't know what to do but i had her stand up and rubbed her back and she seems okay. but i'm really concerned about this...she says it happens often and i am not always here and even if i'm here im not sure what i can do and what am i supposed to do for her if she is choking? (actually she just told me it was a graham cracker she choked on a few minutes ago and i can understand that more than a chocolate ice cream pop...)
it must be really scary for her when this happens.
so,i'm at wits end here,as i know she has appointments in september...should call the neurologist and ask what we should do to try to prevent the choking? did he tell her anything about that michele?
sorry to be a pain.any ideas are welcome...
unfortunately,i'm doing pretty poorly myself. i've been out of work about one day most weeks,which reduces my income even further and sometimes i am late for work,and neither of those things is typical of me. i've always been very good at just getting myself to go to work under most circumstances and through years of depression.i think it is just that my depression is even WORSE than it's been over the years,and that's not good. i tried the adderal for two weeks but it really messed up my sleeping plus i was getting some nighttime twitching and i was definitely NOT more focused...the other day at work and went to check something for a customer and returned to my work area and i had forgotten about her...so obviously the adderall wasn't doing a thing that was positive for me. so i stopped taking them. i am seeing the nurse practioner this week for my stomach stuff and will bring up the topic of trying an antidepressant. i don't have much hope for that,really. i don't know if will be able to tolerate side effects...one possible side effect is sweating and with my skin stuff,sweating would cause intolerable itching. i also still have stomach problems. also,if they helped and i could tolerate the side effects,it could still be several weeks before they do me any good. so i'm not doing very well at all,i'm sorry to say.
sorry to be the bearer of bad news.
love ya,
di
i can't really deal with much more of this...
~~~~~~
hi everybody,
i really hate to even bring this up,but i am getting really scared here and don't know what to do.
mom was just eating one of her chocolate ice cream pops that she eats tons of and she started choking horribly...i didn't really know what to do...it's not really a matter of giving her the heimlich maneuver because i don't think anything gets stuck like that...but she is choking and hardly able to breath. i didn't know what to do but i had her stand up and rubbed her back and she seems okay. but i'm really concerned about this...she says it happens often and i am not always here and even if i'm here im not sure what i can do and what am i supposed to do for her if she is choking? (actually she just told me it was a graham cracker she choked on a few minutes ago and i can understand that more than a chocolate ice cream pop...)
it must be really scary for her when this happens.
so,i'm at wits end here,as i know she has appointments in september...should call the neurologist and ask what we should do to try to prevent the choking? did he tell her anything about that michele?
sorry to be a pain.any ideas are welcome...
unfortunately,i'm doing pretty poorly myself. i've been out of work about one day most weeks,which reduces my income even further and sometimes i am late for work,and neither of those things is typical of me. i've always been very good at just getting myself to go to work under most circumstances and through years of depression.i think it is just that my depression is even WORSE than it's been over the years,and that's not good. i tried the adderal for two weeks but it really messed up my sleeping plus i was getting some nighttime twitching and i was definitely NOT more focused...the other day at work and went to check something for a customer and returned to my work area and i had forgotten about her...so obviously the adderall wasn't doing a thing that was positive for me. so i stopped taking them. i am seeing the nurse practioner this week for my stomach stuff and will bring up the topic of trying an antidepressant. i don't have much hope for that,really. i don't know if will be able to tolerate side effects...one possible side effect is sweating and with my skin stuff,sweating would cause intolerable itching. i also still have stomach problems. also,if they helped and i could tolerate the side effects,it could still be several weeks before they do me any good. so i'm not doing very well at all,i'm sorry to say.
sorry to be the bearer of bad news.
love ya,
di