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bluegreen17) wrote2002-09-22 05:35 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-09-22 05:35 pm
uncle!!!! you hear me god?
well,the ginger helped me to feel not too bad yesterday,but i've been feeling ill since the episode with the bentonite earlier today,even though of course i've used my ginger with my food.
i'm also getting increasingly despondent and nervous because i've tried to call my oldest sister at the number she gave me twice,and i really need to speak to her for my peace of mind and while mom's not here would be better. of course,i'm taking a chance. i'm a nervous wreck about what happens to mom after my vacation and worrying about it is ruining my vacation already. if she can offer me any hope that she is willing to have mom at her house so i can go back to work,it would be a great relief. it probably won't happen. i'm probably going to get screwed over royally by fate or whatever.
i may be repeating myself (i've been so aggitated all i do is write about my problems because i can't stop thinking about them) but my sister said yesterday that she and my other sister that lives around here were going to 'start making some calls about a place to live for mom in the next two weeks'.
start making CALLS?
in the next two weeks??!!!
hello! i have to go back to work a week from tuesday and mom can't stay alone.
can't they do the math?
or is it just fine that i either lose my income until they can find a place for mom and who will buy me my next used car? because i can't buy one if i use all the money i have in the bank,and my car is a 94. it will probably last a few more years,but it's not immortal. i also risk losing my job,or at the very least having things turn to shit while i'm gone and/or losing the position i hold,which is the only one i can do because of my leg problems,which would mean losing my insurance and something is very very wrong with me since i've been sick for over a year and i'm sicker than i have been. sure,it could be stress! haha. i wonder why i'm stressed?!!!!!
arghhhhhh!!!!
(i dont' know what to title this entry...i need a thesaurus or a reverse dictionary that gives me new words for my life keeps getting worse and worse and it's not fair!!!!
i'm also getting increasingly despondent and nervous because i've tried to call my oldest sister at the number she gave me twice,and i really need to speak to her for my peace of mind and while mom's not here would be better. of course,i'm taking a chance. i'm a nervous wreck about what happens to mom after my vacation and worrying about it is ruining my vacation already. if she can offer me any hope that she is willing to have mom at her house so i can go back to work,it would be a great relief. it probably won't happen. i'm probably going to get screwed over royally by fate or whatever.
i may be repeating myself (i've been so aggitated all i do is write about my problems because i can't stop thinking about them) but my sister said yesterday that she and my other sister that lives around here were going to 'start making some calls about a place to live for mom in the next two weeks'.
start making CALLS?
in the next two weeks??!!!
hello! i have to go back to work a week from tuesday and mom can't stay alone.
can't they do the math?
or is it just fine that i either lose my income until they can find a place for mom and who will buy me my next used car? because i can't buy one if i use all the money i have in the bank,and my car is a 94. it will probably last a few more years,but it's not immortal. i also risk losing my job,or at the very least having things turn to shit while i'm gone and/or losing the position i hold,which is the only one i can do because of my leg problems,which would mean losing my insurance and something is very very wrong with me since i've been sick for over a year and i'm sicker than i have been. sure,it could be stress! haha. i wonder why i'm stressed?!!!!!
arghhhhhh!!!!
(i dont' know what to title this entry...i need a thesaurus or a reverse dictionary that gives me new words for my life keeps getting worse and worse and it's not fair!!!!