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bluegreen17) wrote2002-10-09 01:24 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-10-09 01:24 pm
i need a new hobby
this can't be good.
spending more and more of one's free (actually pilfered from time that 'should' be spent doing something productive) time watching 'fellowship of the ring' over and over...
it started semi-innocently enough. yes,first it was fellowship:the mini series...a half hour each day after work,so that i watched the entire movie about once a week,or maybe a second time with more 'free' time on the weekend,when i'm supposed to be sitting mom...fortunately,at this point in time she amuses herself most of the time.
but then,i found myself staying up later and later,not being able to tear myself away...(except i fastforward through the gandalf/saruman fight scene)...not that it matters if i go to bed,since i don't sleep much anyway these days and this may be a side effect of wellbutrin i'll just have to take as a trade off for not feeling hopeless most of the time.
no,this can't be good.
i need to get a life,which is even more a challenge than it used to be,between being away from home 50 hours a week (thank goodness i like my job most of the time!) and having to watch out for mom most of my weekend,making sure she has her 7 medications refilled etc,taking her grocery shopping,whatever,and not being able to go anywhere for a very long time (and eventually i may not be able to leave her alone at all,but i'll deal with that if/when it happens)
the good thing though is due to whatever the wellbutrin is doing to my brain...something about the dopamine and norephrine...one of these days i'm going to research that...i don't feel like it's hopeless...i feel like i may be able to figure something out and i don't feel horribly sad so much of the time.
though these days i feel a bit of a zombie...mostly all i do is work,do chores,watch out for mom,and watch fellowship of the ring,and stay awake most of the night thinking (at least most of it's not negative like it used to be...it's amazing to me to go through pms and not be freaking out all the time)but i don't think it's due to the wellbutrin. i think just think that i'm going through a really challenging time right now and i just carry on and try not to give up so i just soldier on right now...but i think it's going to get better and even having that thought is something!
but...i do think i need a new hobby.
any suggestions?
spending more and more of one's free (actually pilfered from time that 'should' be spent doing something productive) time watching 'fellowship of the ring' over and over...
it started semi-innocently enough. yes,first it was fellowship:the mini series...a half hour each day after work,so that i watched the entire movie about once a week,or maybe a second time with more 'free' time on the weekend,when i'm supposed to be sitting mom...fortunately,at this point in time she amuses herself most of the time.
but then,i found myself staying up later and later,not being able to tear myself away...(except i fastforward through the gandalf/saruman fight scene)...not that it matters if i go to bed,since i don't sleep much anyway these days and this may be a side effect of wellbutrin i'll just have to take as a trade off for not feeling hopeless most of the time.
no,this can't be good.
i need to get a life,which is even more a challenge than it used to be,between being away from home 50 hours a week (thank goodness i like my job most of the time!) and having to watch out for mom most of my weekend,making sure she has her 7 medications refilled etc,taking her grocery shopping,whatever,and not being able to go anywhere for a very long time (and eventually i may not be able to leave her alone at all,but i'll deal with that if/when it happens)
the good thing though is due to whatever the wellbutrin is doing to my brain...something about the dopamine and norephrine...one of these days i'm going to research that...i don't feel like it's hopeless...i feel like i may be able to figure something out and i don't feel horribly sad so much of the time.
though these days i feel a bit of a zombie...mostly all i do is work,do chores,watch out for mom,and watch fellowship of the ring,and stay awake most of the night thinking (at least most of it's not negative like it used to be...it's amazing to me to go through pms and not be freaking out all the time)but i don't think it's due to the wellbutrin. i think just think that i'm going through a really challenging time right now and i just carry on and try not to give up so i just soldier on right now...but i think it's going to get better and even having that thought is something!
but...i do think i need a new hobby.
any suggestions?