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bluegreen17) wrote2003-01-25 01:25 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-01-25 01:25 pm
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i wonder how many times i can listen to 'regret' by new order before i get sick of it? or my neighbors? luckily i can listen to it in the car! i just love this song...it makes me feel cheery. it's funny it's named regret because i sort of think it's about NOT having regrets.i think it's very hopeful. but i can't go entirely by the lyrics...i'm really not sure what's going on lyricwise,but i go by the sound anyway.
wahhh! i don't want to go to work. i love my job,as jobs go,but i just want to have time to do other things...there are sooo many things i want to do,but i dont' have the time or the money. and i really need to make more money,so working less is not likely an option. i'm still trying to figure out the whole how to stay alive and pay the rent after i run out of my savings,which are supplementing my income right now.
i've got a few ideas,but i'm good with ideas and not so good about doing them. my friend megan pointed out that if i left my job (which i'd hate to,plus i'd lose the particular job i aspired to and got) i might be able to come back later. i'm also thinking of trying to work part-time there and getting another part-time job that pays quite a lot more. i need to earn about $100 more a week to live without going into debt.i can't see how i'd manage a full-time and a part-time job...i don't have enough time to do what i need to do as it is ( i don't know if that's because of disorganization or just that i spend time reading and writing,which is what i feel i was born to do...well,that and conversing but there's less opportunity for that when you have no money for socializing,though i do sneak some in at work once in a while...),never mind what i want to do...i spend vacations doing chores. plus,it's okay to do that when you're younger,twenties or whatever,to save up for the future,but i'm 44 and i don't see the point of trading today for a tomorrow that may never come (not to mention that having to have a biopsy which i probably will soon puts mortality and life in intense perspective...not that any of us can ever be guaranteed another day of life)
i need to make $15 an hour somewhere,and having worked in social services and retail for so long,i have no idea where i can make that kind of money,or if i'm qualified for anything. probably some boring manufacturing assembly job but even that may not pay much. my mom worked assembling circuit boards and made less than i do in retail,so i just don't know...
wahhh! i don't want to go to work. i love my job,as jobs go,but i just want to have time to do other things...there are sooo many things i want to do,but i dont' have the time or the money. and i really need to make more money,so working less is not likely an option. i'm still trying to figure out the whole how to stay alive and pay the rent after i run out of my savings,which are supplementing my income right now.
i've got a few ideas,but i'm good with ideas and not so good about doing them. my friend megan pointed out that if i left my job (which i'd hate to,plus i'd lose the particular job i aspired to and got) i might be able to come back later. i'm also thinking of trying to work part-time there and getting another part-time job that pays quite a lot more. i need to earn about $100 more a week to live without going into debt.i can't see how i'd manage a full-time and a part-time job...i don't have enough time to do what i need to do as it is ( i don't know if that's because of disorganization or just that i spend time reading and writing,which is what i feel i was born to do...well,that and conversing but there's less opportunity for that when you have no money for socializing,though i do sneak some in at work once in a while...),never mind what i want to do...i spend vacations doing chores. plus,it's okay to do that when you're younger,twenties or whatever,to save up for the future,but i'm 44 and i don't see the point of trading today for a tomorrow that may never come (not to mention that having to have a biopsy which i probably will soon puts mortality and life in intense perspective...not that any of us can ever be guaranteed another day of life)
i need to make $15 an hour somewhere,and having worked in social services and retail for so long,i have no idea where i can make that kind of money,or if i'm qualified for anything. probably some boring manufacturing assembly job but even that may not pay much. my mom worked assembling circuit boards and made less than i do in retail,so i just don't know...