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bluegreen17) wrote2002-06-29 12:47 am
bluegreen17) wrote2002-06-29 12:47 am
scary boredom
i'm getting worried about my 'boredom'. you know,i have my days,but i've been bored with things for over a week now. except for yesterday,when i ate chocolate and felt great! but that's no more a solution for me than shooting heroin and feeling grrreattt!
i'm concerned that i'm not even enjoying my job,one of the few sources of joy left in my shriveled up prune life...er,my desert wasteland of a life...that sounds more poetic than the prune image,eh?
the other things i enjoy these days are the internet,movies and food. food way too much,but food is more reliable than movies or the internet! a cinnamon poptart is always going to taste the same,unless the poptart making machine fouls up and i've never had a bad poptart in my life!
what a sad life i'm leading. i'm thinking i may have some a.d.d. issues and maybe i can work on that,but the irony is that all the a.d.d. books i've found are boring!
or maybe it's just me. i'm wondering if watching movies has made me more scattered...but i started watching movies because i couldn't interest myself in any reading material!
i've been missing work again. this week it was only a few hours. i worked a half day yesterday,but my excuse was that the ac was broken and i can't tolerate the heat with my skin condition. i've gone in early a couple of days so that will help me get an hour or so back so i'll almost be at forty hours.
this trend of not wanting to go to work is worrying me on two fronts: the psychological and the financial.
oh,well.
when will it end? ever? i'm very lonely too and i wonder if i'll ever have anyone to hang with ever again.
oh,well,on the bright side,they fixed the ac at work. boy,that was a pleasant surprise.
i'm concerned that i'm not even enjoying my job,one of the few sources of joy left in my shriveled up prune life...er,my desert wasteland of a life...that sounds more poetic than the prune image,eh?
the other things i enjoy these days are the internet,movies and food. food way too much,but food is more reliable than movies or the internet! a cinnamon poptart is always going to taste the same,unless the poptart making machine fouls up and i've never had a bad poptart in my life!
what a sad life i'm leading. i'm thinking i may have some a.d.d. issues and maybe i can work on that,but the irony is that all the a.d.d. books i've found are boring!
or maybe it's just me. i'm wondering if watching movies has made me more scattered...but i started watching movies because i couldn't interest myself in any reading material!
i've been missing work again. this week it was only a few hours. i worked a half day yesterday,but my excuse was that the ac was broken and i can't tolerate the heat with my skin condition. i've gone in early a couple of days so that will help me get an hour or so back so i'll almost be at forty hours.
this trend of not wanting to go to work is worrying me on two fronts: the psychological and the financial.
oh,well.
when will it end? ever? i'm very lonely too and i wonder if i'll ever have anyone to hang with ever again.
oh,well,on the bright side,they fixed the ac at work. boy,that was a pleasant surprise.