concerns on appearing to proselytize

[bluegreen17]

with thanks to gurdonark for inspiring this entry with his comment on my entry 'religion,desire,humility'; he wrote:

I'm following these religious exploration posts with interest.


to which i responded:
me too!
that is i'm following my religious exploration with great interest,and i hope it continues.

p.s.
i do,however, have some concern about writing about this. writing about one's religious beliefs can be obnoxious to other people...though to put it in perspective,is that as bad as,say,writing deragotory things about certain races or any other number of things. and of course no one has to read it. still,i guess it's a matter of not wanting people to feel that one's religion is being shoved down their throats,and by the same token,turning people off of the very thing you might want to turn them on to! does that make sense?

also,to me,it's rather personal and difficult to talk about in a way too.

it's rather interesting,because it's just really that feeling a void in my life,i have chosen to believe,because the messages are good. i can't say i have any certainty. but having chosen to believe feels intuitively correct...which isn't really a feeling,per se. more of a kind of knowing. again,hard to explain.

i remember in high school i read c.s. lewis's mere christianity and was impressed that he made a conscious choice to be a christian...it was not by default. it's sort of like a love freely given,which is the only love worth giving and receiving. and i personally think that has a lot to do with the whole journey of life and the idea of free will. just my opinion,anyway!

[entry addendum- i also think it's pretty damned funny that as i'm posting this,an entry about my thoughts of becoming a full-fledged (or possibly just 90% or so...will i really get up early on sunday morning to go to church?) catholic again,that i hear a cardinal singing. hee.]

Comments

writing seriously

[seraphimsigrist.livejournal.com]

Hi! Another question with writing is that
sometimes writing ones feelings in public
can have sometimes the effect of letting
go of an energy that was doing its work
inwardly...sort of like in a steam engine
"losing steam"
Then it can be also as if one has a beautiful dream or
what seems a beautiful thought and says it
and the other person says something not very
helpful ranging from "oh I have ideas and dreams
like that every day but I dont take it seriously"
or "hmm ...right. do you think the stock market
will rise ?" or "wow thats great that reminds me
of what the guru anacondaveranda says you have
to check out his 'seeing with the fourth eye'"
well... so like all things it takes
ones best wisdom, and since mine is never very
good I usually just say a quick prayer and go with
what seems best...
+Seraphim.

Re: writing seriously

[bluegreen17]

i understand this a bit,but not completely. i guess it's a good idea to choose to whom you speak about precious dreams. i guess i trust my lj friends pretty much. but also,i sometimes wonder if i've 'lost' something in sharing. i like to share good things,and don't understand why that might deplete something. i'm not being too clear i guess because i don't totally understand this.

something seems amiss. perhaps i will understand later. thanks for mentioning it,though.