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bluegreen17) wrote2003-05-12 04:31 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-05-12 04:31 pm
servants of the heart
from rob brezny's freewill astrology newsletter:
WENDYB begins by making us breathless with this full blast of Velveteen excellence: "By far, the worst habit to infect my thinking process is, in fact, my thinking process. My thinking is comprised of badly written fiction from external sources about who I am, why I am here, and what I 'should' be doing. It is a blurred, overexposed black-and-white snapshot taken while looking in a funhouse mirror, and has nothing to do with the reality I choose to embrace today. I have, through a process of deep honest inquiry, discovered I much prefer recognition to thinking. Recognition is effortless, liberating and affirming. It is about slowing down enough to remember that beneath my nurse suit is a walking, breathing piece of the Divine. I recognize, on a good day, that I don't have to do or be anything to be of value. I am here. I exist. There's only one of me in the cosmos. Pretty spectacular, eh? I recognize that nature is Real. Mountains and ravens are what they are, and they don't give a damn about my bank account, how wide my ass is, or who I know.
"I recognize my love for and my relationship with my amazing
12-year-old son is Real, and that son, mountain, raven and I all came from the same cosmic soup. When I am able to be still and attend to what is Real, my 'thinking,' my mental processes, resume their proper role as servants of my heart, rather than the other way around. So, the way I most need to retrain my brain is to continue to practice attending to the Real, thereby, hopefully avoiding the familiar but destructive chaos of monkey mind -- fear, doubt, sadness, anger and judgement. It's a subtle but life-altering shift in attention, and I'm getting better at it all the time. Any activity that keeps me inside myself, like reading, laughing, singing, looking at art, blowing glass, listening to music, smelling lilacs, dancing, making love, or writing strange extemporaneous manifestos like this is very helpful.
WENDYB begins by making us breathless with this full blast of Velveteen excellence: "By far, the worst habit to infect my thinking process is, in fact, my thinking process. My thinking is comprised of badly written fiction from external sources about who I am, why I am here, and what I 'should' be doing. It is a blurred, overexposed black-and-white snapshot taken while looking in a funhouse mirror, and has nothing to do with the reality I choose to embrace today. I have, through a process of deep honest inquiry, discovered I much prefer recognition to thinking. Recognition is effortless, liberating and affirming. It is about slowing down enough to remember that beneath my nurse suit is a walking, breathing piece of the Divine. I recognize, on a good day, that I don't have to do or be anything to be of value. I am here. I exist. There's only one of me in the cosmos. Pretty spectacular, eh? I recognize that nature is Real. Mountains and ravens are what they are, and they don't give a damn about my bank account, how wide my ass is, or who I know.
"I recognize my love for and my relationship with my amazing
12-year-old son is Real, and that son, mountain, raven and I all came from the same cosmic soup. When I am able to be still and attend to what is Real, my 'thinking,' my mental processes, resume their proper role as servants of my heart, rather than the other way around. So, the way I most need to retrain my brain is to continue to practice attending to the Real, thereby, hopefully avoiding the familiar but destructive chaos of monkey mind -- fear, doubt, sadness, anger and judgement. It's a subtle but life-altering shift in attention, and I'm getting better at it all the time. Any activity that keeps me inside myself, like reading, laughing, singing, looking at art, blowing glass, listening to music, smelling lilacs, dancing, making love, or writing strange extemporaneous manifestos like this is very helpful.
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