bluegreen17 | (no subject)

i'm not doing too well at the moment.
damn,i work hard at trying to be positive,but the last week at work was tough and discouraging...work backed way up since i went on vacation and little help in sight. okay,well then i have my sunday and monday to wind down. but...i guess it's pms because i had a pretty bad two days of self-loathing which has continued and not let up.

went back to work on tuesday and things were in even worse shape as nothing was done while i was gone,and it piled up even more. okay.

so this morning i wake up rather depressed but tried everything to get myself to perk up. so,little by little,trying to have a few moments here and there of feeling better.

i just went to do my brushing and flossing,a chore i loathe but i spend fifteen to twenty minutes three times a day doing a thorough job on my teeth. today i noticed...that about two of my teeth,there is a horrible gap where my gums should be. my gums are 'healthy'...i.e.pink and not diseased because of how well i take care of my dental hygiene. but the receding of the gums is genetic...and when the gums recede,the root surface of the tooth is exposed and decays very very easily. my gums have been receding for a while but last time i went to the dentist,he said he'd keep an eye on them,but if they got worse,i'd have to go to a surgeon and have some procedure done.

well,shit,looks like i'm going to have to...and where will i find the money? even a mere cavity is expensive even though i have insurance. i'm just feeling really negative...i haven't even gotten new glasses yet and i need them.

and i know if i allow myself to be negative,it will probably just makes things worse. but i don't have the energy to pick myself up right now. so sometimes when i feel like this,i pray...but when i feel this way,God always seems to be very absent,which makes me feel even worse.

oh,i could go on about a lot of other things that are bothering me,but i won't.

anyway,please send good vibes and prayers. i'm just having a really really tough time of it right now.
thanks.

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as I am in the midst of dental costs and upcoming prescription change in a job a loathe, i send you lots of empathy. and i mean that honestly.

You have my prayers and good thoughts. (((HUGS)))

Sending prayer and good thoughts your way.

sending a prayer your way...

I sympathize. I've been in this space many times before a and have been lately to a large degree. It seems to be going around.

sending positive vibes to you .. sweetie... *hugs*

i feel so bad for you. i've had some major problems in the past and had no insurance and the cost always shocks me. any time you need to talk about anything that's bothering you, i'm here. i'll keep you in my prayers too.
*hugs* from patti

Firing up the ol' Positive Wave Transmitter^TM!

thank you and empathy back at ya! and i'm sorry to hear that you hate your job...here's hoping you are able to find something better! take care.

thanks john! i appreciate you being so supportive and so often too!

duly received. and i thank you very much!

here's to better times right around the bend...or,like,right now!

a prayer for you sent!

thanks,dianna. your kindness is always appreciated!

you and your trademarked inventions! i'll bet you invented the positronic flux capicitor as well!

anyway,transmission received so time to sell it to the masses...i hear that sending people unsolicited emails really rakes in the dough...

I definitely empathize with not having the money for health procedures. *huge hugs and healing thoughts coming your way*
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thanks! your kind support is much appreciated.

Nope...just the Eludium Pew-35 Space Modulator and the Continuum Transfunctioner.

Hope things feel loads better soon!