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bluegreen17) wrote2003-07-13 10:48 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-07-13 10:48 pm
what the f...?
i'd like to know how the universe works,exactly.
ha.
yesterday my boss mentioned to me that 'it must suck' that i have weird stomach problems so that if we go out after work,i can't eat anything because it's too close to bedtime. i had bad stomach problems for two years and it hasn't been too bad for a while. i get occasional discomfort,but nothing like it used to be. some days i didn't eat much and i lost a lot of weight,which i kind of liked,but it was getting to the point where i was almost looking unhealthy. (even though i was unhealthy.
i told him that i'd been doing better lately in general,pretty well since i started taking nexium,though i hate having to rely on it. i also mentioned to him that what i hated most of all was when i had acid reflux...the burping and discomfort. i told him i hated that more than the pain that was probably an ulcer or the nausea i used to get a lot. the discomfort was worse than the pain.
anyway,strangely enough,last night i started having those stupid burping symptoms. ugh. i thought it was possible that i had forgotten to take my daily dose of nexium so i'd be fine once i took it today. well,i DEFINITELY took my dose of nexium today. and tonight,after eating supper,i felt bloated,too full,and i've been burping again. i hate this.
and it's really ironic that it happens RIGHT AFTER i mentioned how grateful i was that i didn't have that. this sort of thing has happened to me before,fairly often. right after expressing gratitude for something,i lose it. this makes me very paranoid about being grateful or even positive in a way. it's better that i just don't mention things. and of course it's considered a way to have a better attitude to have a gratitude journal and/or be grateful for things in general. but when i do that...this is just too bizarre. i just don't understand,and i do have a small understanding of energy and attitude and how it works.a lot of the time i don't make it work for me because i don't feel like i have the energy,but i know that one usually has to get oneself in a positive frame of mind FIRST before one feels better...though sometimes there is outside help.
i just dont understand this. what am i missing?
oy,i feel crappy. and i'm not looking forward to visiting my mother in the nursing home tomorrow...that' doesn't help much either.
it seems i haven't quite 'recovered' from my last bout with pms two weeks ago. yikes. it'll be time for pms again soon...
well,i'm sure i won't feel bad forever,but this is just a weird coincidence.
ha.
yesterday my boss mentioned to me that 'it must suck' that i have weird stomach problems so that if we go out after work,i can't eat anything because it's too close to bedtime. i had bad stomach problems for two years and it hasn't been too bad for a while. i get occasional discomfort,but nothing like it used to be. some days i didn't eat much and i lost a lot of weight,which i kind of liked,but it was getting to the point where i was almost looking unhealthy. (even though i was unhealthy.
i told him that i'd been doing better lately in general,pretty well since i started taking nexium,though i hate having to rely on it. i also mentioned to him that what i hated most of all was when i had acid reflux...the burping and discomfort. i told him i hated that more than the pain that was probably an ulcer or the nausea i used to get a lot. the discomfort was worse than the pain.
anyway,strangely enough,last night i started having those stupid burping symptoms. ugh. i thought it was possible that i had forgotten to take my daily dose of nexium so i'd be fine once i took it today. well,i DEFINITELY took my dose of nexium today. and tonight,after eating supper,i felt bloated,too full,and i've been burping again. i hate this.
and it's really ironic that it happens RIGHT AFTER i mentioned how grateful i was that i didn't have that. this sort of thing has happened to me before,fairly often. right after expressing gratitude for something,i lose it. this makes me very paranoid about being grateful or even positive in a way. it's better that i just don't mention things. and of course it's considered a way to have a better attitude to have a gratitude journal and/or be grateful for things in general. but when i do that...this is just too bizarre. i just don't understand,and i do have a small understanding of energy and attitude and how it works.a lot of the time i don't make it work for me because i don't feel like i have the energy,but i know that one usually has to get oneself in a positive frame of mind FIRST before one feels better...though sometimes there is outside help.
i just dont understand this. what am i missing?
oy,i feel crappy. and i'm not looking forward to visiting my mother in the nursing home tomorrow...that' doesn't help much either.
it seems i haven't quite 'recovered' from my last bout with pms two weeks ago. yikes. it'll be time for pms again soon...
well,i'm sure i won't feel bad forever,but this is just a weird coincidence.