what the f...?

[bluegreen17]

i'd like to know how the universe works,exactly.

ha.

yesterday my boss mentioned to me that 'it must suck' that i have weird stomach problems so that if we go out after work,i can't eat anything because it's too close to bedtime. i had bad stomach problems for two years and it hasn't been too bad for a while. i get occasional discomfort,but nothing like it used to be. some days i didn't eat much and i lost a lot of weight,which i kind of liked,but it was getting to the point where i was almost looking unhealthy. (even though i was unhealthy.

i told him that i'd been doing better lately in general,pretty well since i started taking nexium,though i hate having to rely on it. i also mentioned to him that what i hated most of all was when i had acid reflux...the burping and discomfort. i told him i hated that more than the pain that was probably an ulcer or the nausea i used to get a lot. the discomfort was worse than the pain.

anyway,strangely enough,last night i started having those stupid burping symptoms. ugh. i thought it was possible that i had forgotten to take my daily dose of nexium so i'd be fine once i took it today. well,i DEFINITELY took my dose of nexium today. and tonight,after eating supper,i felt bloated,too full,and i've been burping again. i hate this.

and it's really ironic that it happens RIGHT AFTER i mentioned how grateful i was that i didn't have that. this sort of thing has happened to me before,fairly often. right after expressing gratitude for something,i lose it. this makes me very paranoid about being grateful or even positive in a way. it's better that i just don't mention things. and of course it's considered a way to have a better attitude to have a gratitude journal and/or be grateful for things in general. but when i do that...this is just too bizarre. i just don't understand,and i do have a small understanding of energy and attitude and how it works.a lot of the time i don't make it work for me because i don't feel like i have the energy,but i know that one usually has to get oneself in a positive frame of mind FIRST before one feels better...though sometimes there is outside help.

i just dont understand this. what am i missing?

oy,i feel crappy. and i'm not looking forward to visiting my mother in the nursing home tomorrow...that' doesn't help much either.

it seems i haven't quite 'recovered' from my last bout with pms two weeks ago. yikes. it'll be time for pms again soon...

well,i'm sure i won't feel bad forever,but this is just a weird coincidence.

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[sophy.livejournal.com]

Ya know, if I miss a dose of my Pepcid AC, it takes days for me to recover no matter how faithfully I am after the one skipped dose. Or if I take it but then have one of my non-eating days which makes the heartburn/acid reflux/whatever act up, it takes a few days of eating normally again to get back on track.
So, maybe it's still possible that you missed a dose of the Nexium?
Or maybe, you know, fate was dragging you down for tempting it the way you did. ;)

[bluegreen17]

yeah,that's weird. i'd heard that nexium is supposed to stay in your system for a few days,but maybe it got messed up missing a dose. if so,it looks i won't be getting off of it soon. well,it doesn't look like i will anyway.

pretty bad when being grateful is tempting fate,huh? ha. sometimes i think the way my brain works is 'backward' of the way everyone else's does!

i guess i'll live. thanks for your support. you're great about that so often and i appreciate it.

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[sophy.livejournal.com]

I don't really know anything about nexium, so you're prolly right that ti stays in the system rather than being a twice daily needed thing like my pepcid. heh

pretty bad when being grateful is tempting fate,huh?
I hear that. Grrr

[ex-lovecraf.livejournal.com]

You know, I had the exact same symptoms for years, and eventually was hospitalized because of it. Turned out it was a gallstone. Now, those can kill you, so if you haven't been checked for stones, you should really get on it.

[bluegreen17]

i've been to the doctor's quite a few times for this problem. i don't think it was indicated,though i could run it by them. i thought that gall bladder pain is usually on the right side,kind of in the middle of your chest where your gall bladder is? i've had that pain before when i used to eat high fat stuff,but haven't had such a problem in a long time. oops.maybe i'd better not say that...ha.

anyway,i will check into that.
my mother had her gallbladder removed a couple of years ago.she was really really sick for a few days before they figured that out...but she was sick in the evening after eating,and i even suspected it myself,because she had pain where i thought she would. anyhow...

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

yes, gallstone pain is in the upper right chest, right under the ribcage. hurts like mad, twinging and so on. can cause referred shoulder pain, from the gas.

my husband is on two nexium a day, like me; for him, the med itself causes terrible burping. this reflux is really awful. i sleep propped up and have to be so careful. sorry your symptoms are suddenly worse! hope you feel better soon.

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[ex-lovecraf.livejournal.com]

Well, long before I started getting the pain you are describing, I had a lot of acid reflux and indigestion , that's why I mentioned it.

[allogenes.livejournal.com]

If you figure out how the universe works, let me know.

Have you checked in with a doctor to see if you have irritible bowel? Some of your symptoms seem to fit, and there are new drugs that work on the symptoms--essentially fixing the core muscle problems throughout the GI tract.

I'm on ranitidine (Zantac-clone) for my upper GI, I can get an awful acid-reflux sometimes. Whenever my schedule chages, weak forms of my symptoms return for a few days.

Good luck with that.

Interestingly enough--I have had a similar experience to yours. Recently I have had a sore throat (3 weeks, now) which has gotten partially better twice now, only to return when my attention was drawn to it. The other day my doctor told me that the problem was *not* an infection--since the pain had not gotten much worse. One hour later the pain got *much* worse! So they gave me antibiotics...we'll see what comes next...

Good luck with that, too...

[autumnfaerie.livejournal.com]

Awww, I hope you get to feeling better soon. Acid reflux is a bitch and makes you feel awful. Maybe the Nexium isn't working anymore and you need to go on something else like Prevacid?

I'm with everyone else about the Gallbladder symptoms thing. It wouldn't hurt to have an ultrasound if there's doubt about it. Just see what the MD says, I guess.

Oh, that's funny you said that about just when you mention being glad for something it screws you over. Yeah, I know what you mean there. It's just like when I think things are going to be OK and work out and I mention it to someone BANG the universe does a 180 on me. Go figure. I wonder if we're not cursed.