not feeling very competent,but i've got a good book to read

[bluegreen17]

feeling better physically today,but mentally i was in horrible shape this morning. i wasn't able to force myself to go visit my mother in the nursing home,which just makes me feel worse. last week i didn't go because it was too hot and i have a skin problem with the heat. i guess i will try to go next week.

i was just worrying about a million things...the future,how i will survive...i finally just shut it out of my mind and concentrated on just 'being present'. the problem with that,as far as i can see,is that if i constantly practice 'being present' i will neglect taking steps to make the changes that are needed for my future survival.

anyway,i picked up a book i bought about a year ago and started to read it. it's ken wilber's a brief history of everything. even though it's one of his simpler books,i need to really concentrate to understand it. so that should take my mind off of everyday realities for awhile...

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[stellamirabelle.livejournal.com]

the problem with that,as far as i can see,is that if i constantly practice 'being present' i will neglect taking steps to make the changes that are needed for my future survival.

I've had that same train of thought... and I don't know what the solution is. I've been trying to be "present" this summer and when I am, I forget to pay bills and call the temp agencies!