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bluegreen17) wrote2002-07-29 01:07 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-07-29 01:07 pm
the long journey home
haven't felt like writing much lately,and luckily for you dear reader,haven't felt like talking about my problems much either. today i am going to see a psychotherapist who deals with adult a.d.d. and i am nervous about it because i really want to get some help really soon,and i feel rather desperate. i know being there for less than an hour i am going to feel rushed to get some help fast,and i dont know if it's going to take weeks to evaluate me for medication but i need something pretty much NOW. i feel really badly about my attendance at work...i usually miss one day a week simply because i'm too depressed to push myself one more day. i get less depressed at home because i can distract myself better with movies and writing and even food. oh,and i wasn't going to write about my problems. well,there's tons i wont say anyway!
i rented 'the time machine' this weekend which was better than i expected.i wanted to see it because guy pearce is in it. his character wasnt too exciting during the first part of the movie,but once he went traveling in the time machine,things got really interesting,and i think he's really good with the action stuff,which usually isn't my cup o' tea. ha. well,you never know. it's a visually beautiful movie...the time machine is amazing. i wish they'd gotten a little further with the romance with the future woman. they never even kissed,but there was definitely chemistry there. but the movie ends about there.
i love romance,but you know what i really love? is movies that depict real love...between friends and family and people who have been married for years and still love each other,even if they fight. like the father and mother in the movie 'the snapper'...the father was played by colm meaney,who's great. or the love the people in the town of 'mystery alaska' have for each other...colm meaney's in that too! ha. i know it's only in the movies,but sometimes it happens in real life too. i suppose it was sort of like that in the little town i grew up in. and in my last year of college i had a group of friends who made me feel a part of a community,and sometimes in some work settings i've felt like that.
i loved the ending of the movie chocolat (spoiler alert!) because of the fact that instead of running away like she had always done in the past,she stayed. she had finally found her home. i'm still looking for my home in the world,i think,and i hope i'll find it before i die.
i rented 'the time machine' this weekend which was better than i expected.i wanted to see it because guy pearce is in it. his character wasnt too exciting during the first part of the movie,but once he went traveling in the time machine,things got really interesting,and i think he's really good with the action stuff,which usually isn't my cup o' tea. ha. well,you never know. it's a visually beautiful movie...the time machine is amazing. i wish they'd gotten a little further with the romance with the future woman. they never even kissed,but there was definitely chemistry there. but the movie ends about there.
i love romance,but you know what i really love? is movies that depict real love...between friends and family and people who have been married for years and still love each other,even if they fight. like the father and mother in the movie 'the snapper'...the father was played by colm meaney,who's great. or the love the people in the town of 'mystery alaska' have for each other...colm meaney's in that too! ha. i know it's only in the movies,but sometimes it happens in real life too. i suppose it was sort of like that in the little town i grew up in. and in my last year of college i had a group of friends who made me feel a part of a community,and sometimes in some work settings i've felt like that.
i loved the ending of the movie chocolat (spoiler alert!) because of the fact that instead of running away like she had always done in the past,she stayed. she had finally found her home. i'm still looking for my home in the world,i think,and i hope i'll find it before i die.