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bluegreen17) wrote2002-07-29 09:51 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-07-29 09:51 pm
circuits overloaded
i'm exhausted. i'm such a wimp. this is what i did today:
while heating up my lunch i did a load of laundry.well,of course the drying takes longer than that,during which time i fooled around on the internet.
i went out to do errands.first,to the drugstore where i bought a few essentials and cards for abigail and emily,who will be four this friday.then on to the eye doctor to get my frames adjusted...i bent them a while back while getting into my car and i had to bend them back,and they've been feeling lose. now they are better.
to the library,where i returned some things and borrowed a book of essays by martin amis,a fiction book about ferrets by richard bach,a tape set for learning french,and a travel video of france. (yes,amelie did make an impression on me.)
next,to the video store which was utterly frustrating because their ac wasn't working and i started getting itchy and i couldn't find anything i wanted to see tonight. i ended up getting something called 'i've heard the mermaids singing' that looked quirky (i like quirky) which i've started to watch and i'm bored so far.
to the pharmacy to get my refill of the proton pump inhibitor for my stomach and they said 25 minutes so while they were doing that i went to the grocery store to get a few things i forgot to get yesterday. then i came back to the drugstore,picked out a card for my dad,whose birthday is six days after the twins,and picked up my prescription.
then i came home,had my afternoon ration of water (16 oz.) with my horse chestnut extract capsule (for the circulation in my legs) and goofed around on the internet for awhile.
then it was to my psychotherapy appointment,which i was nervous about. well,it went better than i expected. the therapist said that i can get meds from my regular doctor and she said basically they may have a checklist for a.d.d. but for the most part she felt that adults can pretty much assess themselves. at least that's what i understood from her,but then i don't always trust my comprehension. maybe she meant from what i told her it seemed like the case. which was a relief because i am pretty convinced i have a.d.d. and i thought she might not.
so i am going to call the doctor's office as soon as possible...hopefully i can get myself to do it before i go to work tomorrow,though i always run late on tuesdays,and they are the worst days for me to get out of bed,because it's my monday,and i have weekend inertia on my side or rather not on my side!
and i'm going to try to get in there for an appointment and have them fix me up with some dexedrine probably as soon as possible. i NEED to get so many things done and this is the only way i think might help me focus and be motivated. i can only hope. i need to clean this apartment for if/when i have to move. i need to figure out how to get some financial assistance to pay the rent if i'm elegible,and/or figure out how to earn more money. and my sisters and i need to figure out if we can get help from a social worker regarding our mother.
i am also going to go to counseling for a little while. basically,i mostly need someone to listen to me and make suggestions. i don't know how long my insurance will pay or how much i will have to pay after they pay part,so that's a factor too. not to mention taking the time to do it.
i have an appointment for next week but i may change it to two weeks from now because i should take my dad out for his birthday. haven't figured out where yet. and ironically,i will be using birthday money he gave me to take him out! not that he's cheap...he gave me $1,000 which is helping me to keep afloat for a few more weeks.
so i'm exhausted,but it's not physical exhaustion,it's psychological exhaustion.
while heating up my lunch i did a load of laundry.well,of course the drying takes longer than that,during which time i fooled around on the internet.
i went out to do errands.first,to the drugstore where i bought a few essentials and cards for abigail and emily,who will be four this friday.then on to the eye doctor to get my frames adjusted...i bent them a while back while getting into my car and i had to bend them back,and they've been feeling lose. now they are better.
to the library,where i returned some things and borrowed a book of essays by martin amis,a fiction book about ferrets by richard bach,a tape set for learning french,and a travel video of france. (yes,amelie did make an impression on me.)
next,to the video store which was utterly frustrating because their ac wasn't working and i started getting itchy and i couldn't find anything i wanted to see tonight. i ended up getting something called 'i've heard the mermaids singing' that looked quirky (i like quirky) which i've started to watch and i'm bored so far.
to the pharmacy to get my refill of the proton pump inhibitor for my stomach and they said 25 minutes so while they were doing that i went to the grocery store to get a few things i forgot to get yesterday. then i came back to the drugstore,picked out a card for my dad,whose birthday is six days after the twins,and picked up my prescription.
then i came home,had my afternoon ration of water (16 oz.) with my horse chestnut extract capsule (for the circulation in my legs) and goofed around on the internet for awhile.
then it was to my psychotherapy appointment,which i was nervous about. well,it went better than i expected. the therapist said that i can get meds from my regular doctor and she said basically they may have a checklist for a.d.d. but for the most part she felt that adults can pretty much assess themselves. at least that's what i understood from her,but then i don't always trust my comprehension. maybe she meant from what i told her it seemed like the case. which was a relief because i am pretty convinced i have a.d.d. and i thought she might not.
so i am going to call the doctor's office as soon as possible...hopefully i can get myself to do it before i go to work tomorrow,though i always run late on tuesdays,and they are the worst days for me to get out of bed,because it's my monday,and i have weekend inertia on my side or rather not on my side!
and i'm going to try to get in there for an appointment and have them fix me up with some dexedrine probably as soon as possible. i NEED to get so many things done and this is the only way i think might help me focus and be motivated. i can only hope. i need to clean this apartment for if/when i have to move. i need to figure out how to get some financial assistance to pay the rent if i'm elegible,and/or figure out how to earn more money. and my sisters and i need to figure out if we can get help from a social worker regarding our mother.
i am also going to go to counseling for a little while. basically,i mostly need someone to listen to me and make suggestions. i don't know how long my insurance will pay or how much i will have to pay after they pay part,so that's a factor too. not to mention taking the time to do it.
i have an appointment for next week but i may change it to two weeks from now because i should take my dad out for his birthday. haven't figured out where yet. and ironically,i will be using birthday money he gave me to take him out! not that he's cheap...he gave me $1,000 which is helping me to keep afloat for a few more weeks.
so i'm exhausted,but it's not physical exhaustion,it's psychological exhaustion.