bluegreen17 | (no subject)

i'm working on 'being-here-now'. i'm reading an excellent new book called
self-powerment by faye mandell. i like it because i can understand it.

something is really bothering me out of all proportion right now and it's silly but i'll tell you about it anyway. i love getting into bed at night...well,morning...and having it be quiet and peaceful. life is so noisy so much of the time.i live in a condo and there's lots of sounds. many i rather like...just the sounds of everyday life. but it's nice to have a respite some part of the day. i expect that at 2 a.m.

actually,often there are still noises,but i've gotten used to them. in summer,much of the time there is the hum of the outside air conditioning units. there are four underneath my window,so some are often on. one person's is noiser,but i've gotten used to that too. i can still relax and fall asleep. sometimes there's a weird hum from the direction of the oil company right down the road,which is just across a small field. i find that a little annoying,but it doesn't keep me from sleeping.

but...
for the past week,when i go to bed at 2 a.m. or so,i've been hearing someone playing a radio. it's not really ultra-loud,and thank god it's not heavy bassy rap. i find that INCREDIBLY irritating anytime of day.
but it's just loud enough to be a distraction. and i have found it to be incredibly irritating,and it's taken me a long time to fall asleep all week. i keep waking up and it'll still be on at 4 a.m. this morning i woke up up 5 after a brief period of sleep and it had finally stopped. i don't know who's radio it is,so i can't do much about it. i briefly thought of calling the police...don't even know if it counts as disturbing the peace...but the person probably doesn't mean to be disruptive. i don't know if everyone else just sleeps right through it. i've tried to just relax and convince myself to let it go,but it is really irritating me. and after a week or so of this,i'm very depressed about my bad nights. just like everybody else,i need my sleep. and then if i don't get to sleep until 5 a.m. or so,i get out of bed even later,and get less accomplished and then feel more stressed...

i wish i could just find a way to not be bothered by things.i can't control everything,that's for sure. i feel badly because i've left notes a couple of times about people's dogs barking for hours,or their toilet running for hours. these things grate on my nerves. i wish i could just not be bothered by them. i hate bothering people who are not intentionally doing anything or being jerks.

and it's stupid,but this just makes me feel depressed,because i feel like there is nothing i can do,i'm tired,i'm depressed and when i start to get depressed,all the other readily-available reasons for being depressed just make a mad dash for my brain and create a mob scene. and then i feel pinned in by the crowd. i've got to find a way to not get here in the first place...

so,i just have to ponder...what good is being here now if now is irritating or painful? i realize i can stop worrying about this,but i will probably just have this happen to me again every night...and 'being here now' just about drives me insane on the spot when a particular sound is just really really bothering me...

i know there's an answer somewhere...

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Regarding the radio... when I lived in dorms, apartments and then a condo, I had this same problem to varying degrees. It would drive me NUTS!!!I don't care how in-the-moment you are, if you are a light sleeper and you hear someone else's noise in the wee hours of the morning, it can be absolutely infuriating (sometimes out of proportion, because we all get a little bit... overemotional in the middle of the night).

I found one solution - Ear plugs. I would sometimes just put a plug in one ear and have the other ear against my pillow and would go right to sleep.

hey,that might work...thank you so much!

you're welcome!

There are different types of earplugs. There's the foamy kind (my personal favorite), and the waxy kind, which work ok. The foamy ones are the best, I think. hahah. I am an earplug connaisseur.

I play the radio at night.. because i can't sleep with out noise. I usally Leave it on only loud enough for me to hear it. If i know i am alone i turn it up. It drives me crazy to not have some kind of background noise going on.

I guess f it truely bothers you maybe you should try to pin point the noise and ask them to possibly turn down the radio. ^_^ if they are nice neighbors they will. *smile*

does it sound like it's coming from across the way-where that trucking place is? i used to here trucks there late and night and a radio. my boss looked at renting a house back there and I told her about that. hmm....or is it definetely in the building?

last night,saints be praised,i didn't hear a radio. then again,i was so tired i zonked out pretty quickly and deeply.

i've heard clanking and humming noises from the oil company before...so you've heard a radio before? maybe they were working on a 'special project' and now they're done. one can hope...

a few years back I was cursed with the Evil Hellbeast Neighbors of Doom. (actually, I used to refer to them merely as Those Fucktards, but that's not as descriptive. *grin*) anyway, they used to play loud music (country, in my case) at all hours of the night, and leave their trucks running for hours on end (yes, truly) so they were rumbling all the damn time. I swear half the ozone pollution came from them..."they" being early 20s redneck non-college educated boys with giant trucks and 4-wheelers. I could go into more details about why they were the worst people alive, but I won't, as that would bore you. ;)

anyway, to make a long story short...I was on the verge of getting earplugs before they finally ran out their lease and moved out. so I agree with whoever suggested the earplugs...that sounds like a plan to me.

eep, this was a long and bitchy reply. sorry bout that! :(

a think a story about these people would be highly entertaining...leaving their trucks on for hours...why? i've heard they do that in some parts of canada when it's really really cold...i can't imagine such energy consumption and pollution...eek.

I will definitely include an entire chapter on these people whenever I write my memoirs. I have no idea why they let their trucks run! it was all weathers, at all times of day. never knew when I'd wake up/come home/go to bed during a truck idling session. they also used to have lots of friends over all the time and they'd park their trucks on the edge of our yard.

oh yes, I have a hundred stories, unfortunately. they were eeeeevil, I say.

You know, I have experienced the same type of reactions to noise...some people are just more sensitive to it. You might try several nights of falling asleep to your own radio...leave it on all night, and after a while, you will be able to sleep thru radio sounds. It might be a control issue....so if you become the source of it, and can control it, It may lose its grip on you. (: I had to get used to the neighbors 2 incessantly barking dogs!!

I know what you mean. I feel the same way, often. I'm a pacifist for the most part, although I have been known to lose my temper and enter into fisticuffs in the past ... mostly only when provoked, or when on the defense though. Anyway, my passivity keeps me from bringing minor annoyance's to anyone's attention. If it bothers me enough, or I’ve put up with it too long, I might say something. I usually just let things go, wishing they didn't bother me because it would spare me the energy of enduring an annoyance, and the resulting feelings of inadequacy and depression that results from being so damn unable to request a little peace in my life. ::sigh:: Sorry, major rant there. So, my point... (lol) I agree with you... I wish things didn't bother me, ever.