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bluegreen17 ([personal profile] bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-08 01:34 pm

i wish horoscopes were true

GEMINI (May 21-June 20): Many Geminis are almost too multi-talented for their own good. One of my friends is a fine actress, singer, dancer, and poet. Another has expertise in forestry, medieval music, grant-writing, city-planning, and graphic arts. [i don't think i have much in the way of talent,at least nothing useful,but i do have a lot of interests when i'm not in the mode of 'nothing interests me'-i hate those awful moods,which happen way too often these days.]
They find it difficult to concentrate on just one field of endeavor because they can't bring themselves to ignore the rest. As a result they never get really polished at any one thing, and have trouble earning a wage commensurate with their talent. If this describes your own fate even a little, Gemini, it's now a favorable time to make a change. In the coming months it will be far less painful than usual -- possibly even unexpectedly pleasurable -- to commit yourself to a single path.

this is my latest horoscope from freewillastrology.com

well,that would be very interesting if i could find one thing i could interest myself in and focus on,career wise. i actually very much like my job...in many ways it's perfect for me,because i'm left alone to supervise myself most of the time,and that works well for me,because when i like a job,i'm self motivated. i also get plenty of exercise with this job which is good for my poor leg circulation-much preferable to a lot of sitting or standing in one place. [i work in a large bookstore,and basically oversee the newstand,which means schlepping cartloads of magazines from the receiving room,which is at one end of the store,to the newstand,which is at the other end. i'm constantly running back and forth,because my work is divided between those two areas,and then sometimes people ask me to show them where something is,like the maps,which are in yet another remote corner of the store. people often apologize for making me walk so far,but in truth,unless i'm stressed and have too much to do,and don't really have time,i don't mind at all...i like walking around in the course of my day. the huge problem with my job right now is since my mother retired and no longer can pay half the rent,my job does not pay enough and finances are a real puzzle to me right now...i don't know what i'm going to do,and i don't have the energy to work a second job. i feel pressed for time too often as it is.

i guess i'll have to call the doctor AGAIN today,even though i left a message with the answering service last night...i don't understand this delay in helping me out. i guess the doctor does not understand that i wouldn't even be considering a psychiatric drug if i wasn't desperate,and every day i wait avails me the opportunity to sink deeper into frustration and depression. and after all this trouble,there is still a chance it won't help and/or i'll have side effects that make it not worth it.

i'm damned frustrated about this. but i'll be happy for a little while because i'm eating a ben and jerry's frozen yogurt right now. : b