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bluegreen17) wrote2003-09-30 12:55 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-09-30 12:55 pm
nickeled and dimed
i'm really nervous about my raise this week. if i don't get 15 more dollars a week (50 cents an hour) more i'm going to be devastated. doesn't the goddess know that the best thing for this world is for me to live alone? i'm hell to live with,and maybe i wouldn't be if i felt better more of the time,but i'm not seeing too many miracles happening. but i can't keep living alone without making enough money to pay the rent,and i have no energy for a second job.
and my nerves are about to snap because of the two dogs that bark downstairs every day while the owner is at work.
next week i'm on vacation and i was thinking of calling a couple of friends to get together to have lunch. but i really don't have the money for it. plus,to be honest,i feel overwhelmed just making plans anyway. i should go visit my mother that week and i need to go clothes "shopping" at the free place sponsored by the church and i hate clothes-hunting. many of the clothes i'm wearing to work are literally frayed and i just keep hoping no one will notice!
i just don't know how people have the energy to work two jobs.( what kind of life is it where you work two jobs anyway? not too good,but some have it worse,which is sad.) but lots do. so it's me who's defective for not being able to force myself to work a second job after my 40 hours with 10 hours traveling per week.
god,i've gotten really evil and cranky lately.i even had the thought of poisoning those dogs to shut them up,which is a really horrible shadow side of me. thankfully,i don't think i could ever actually do it. it's not really the dogs fault,anyway. it's the stupid humans for having dogs and leaving them home alone all day.
and i feel evil for complaining too,but it's not stopping me,is it?
and my nerves are about to snap because of the two dogs that bark downstairs every day while the owner is at work.
next week i'm on vacation and i was thinking of calling a couple of friends to get together to have lunch. but i really don't have the money for it. plus,to be honest,i feel overwhelmed just making plans anyway. i should go visit my mother that week and i need to go clothes "shopping" at the free place sponsored by the church and i hate clothes-hunting. many of the clothes i'm wearing to work are literally frayed and i just keep hoping no one will notice!
i just don't know how people have the energy to work two jobs.( what kind of life is it where you work two jobs anyway? not too good,but some have it worse,which is sad.) but lots do. so it's me who's defective for not being able to force myself to work a second job after my 40 hours with 10 hours traveling per week.
god,i've gotten really evil and cranky lately.i even had the thought of poisoning those dogs to shut them up,which is a really horrible shadow side of me. thankfully,i don't think i could ever actually do it. it's not really the dogs fault,anyway. it's the stupid humans for having dogs and leaving them home alone all day.
and i feel evil for complaining too,but it's not stopping me,is it?
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(Anonymous) 2003-10-02 06:22 am (UTC)(link)patti