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bluegreen17) wrote2003-10-03 02:17 am
bluegreen17) wrote2003-10-03 02:17 am
a gem of a thursday
perfection is anti-life.
death is not anti-life.
just a couple of thoughts i had today,which inspired me,because i often get down on myself if i can't make things look perfect,or have things be perfect,which of course is pretty much impossible!
last night i had an interesting dream that i only half-remembered,but when i woke up,i felt in good spirits,so in some sense i feel like it was a healing dream of some positive bit of change in my life behind the scenes,so to speak. in the dream,i found two stray brown labrador puppies. i took care of them,but later on found someone else to take care of them. in the meantime,though,i got very attached to one of them,and i ended up going back and adopting him as my own. the reason i think this dream is significant in some way is that i'm really a cat person,and not overly fond of dogs,because they require a lot of attention and taking care of,and can be much messier than cats. in deciding in the dream to adopt that puppy who just stole my heart,it sort of felt like accepting a 'messy' imperfect part of myself,which ties into the insight i had while i was in the shower. (water conducts insight!)
it also embraces change,since i've considered myself a 'cat' person. something about that dream just felt good and right. sometimes i've just woken up and KNOWN something has changed for the better.
The well-bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves.-oscar wilde
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quietjupiter)
death is not anti-life.
just a couple of thoughts i had today,which inspired me,because i often get down on myself if i can't make things look perfect,or have things be perfect,which of course is pretty much impossible!
last night i had an interesting dream that i only half-remembered,but when i woke up,i felt in good spirits,so in some sense i feel like it was a healing dream of some positive bit of change in my life behind the scenes,so to speak. in the dream,i found two stray brown labrador puppies. i took care of them,but later on found someone else to take care of them. in the meantime,though,i got very attached to one of them,and i ended up going back and adopting him as my own. the reason i think this dream is significant in some way is that i'm really a cat person,and not overly fond of dogs,because they require a lot of attention and taking care of,and can be much messier than cats. in deciding in the dream to adopt that puppy who just stole my heart,it sort of felt like accepting a 'messy' imperfect part of myself,which ties into the insight i had while i was in the shower. (water conducts insight!)
it also embraces change,since i've considered myself a 'cat' person. something about that dream just felt good and right. sometimes i've just woken up and KNOWN something has changed for the better.
The well-bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves.-oscar wilde
(just found that on the user info page of
quietjupiter)
holy crap!
No you don't!
Shut up youse!
uh oh.
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death is not anti-life.
Aren't they anti-life in opposite directions?
Perfection is over-crystallization: too much order. Death is breakdown, chaos dismantling the works.
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: p
i see your point. i think it depends on how you define things. i think of death as the beginning of regeneration. my thought on perfection was thinking of stagnation,rather than order. the way i was defining perfection was lacking in any kind of change...this just goes to show that words are not perfect structures,but they're a kind of structure used to try to convey ideas anyway.
a good kind of 'perfection' would be some kind of alternating chaos and order,or co-existing chaos and order.if i keep going on this,i'm going to create more chaos than i'd like to!
you definitely gave me more food for thought...
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I agree with the main point. Luckily, perfection isn't actually possible; unfortunately, though, that doesn't prevent many of us from trying to pursue it and paralyzing ourselves in the process.
perfection
exactly! that's how the insight helped.
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ha.
i'm going to look for some of wilde's essays today...i like so many things quoted from him.
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It is so true that perfectionism paralizes us, it does me anyway. Often I can't even get going on a project because I can't visualize getting it done 'perfectly'. Of course when I do start, things often turn out to be really easy. :)
It sounds like your really wonderful dream was a good starting place, if you let it be!
Hug
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