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bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-09 01:03 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-09 01:03 pm
score! well,maybe...
well,i finally got a call from the doctor's office. it wasn't the doctor,it was the nurse practioner,who's been a lot of help. (i'm not being sarcastic,i'm being sincere. she's made a lot of effort even though i never talked to the doctor in the last few weeks)
anyway,she said she was going to have the doctor prescribe adderall for me,but since it's a controlled substance they can't call in a prescription.i have to drive over and pick up the piece of paper.i wonder if lithium is a controlled substance? because i know people take that recreationally.
anyway,i'm not playing with this,and i wouldn't be taking it if i wasn't desperate to not keeping feeling lousy for the next 44 years (or whatever!) as i have the last 44 years.i am a bit nervous about taking it,and i'm hoping it will help.
i was a bit miffed though that the therapist told the doctor i basically had dysthmia...chronic low grade depression. well,maybe i do,but i think it's been caused by the a.d.d. and is not the primary problem...which is why i'm trying a stimulant and not an antidepressant.
when i was a kid,i was unhappy a lot. i was frustrated and got angry and kicked a couple of holes in walls. does that sound like depression? then i got to be an adolescent and such tantrums were socialized out of me,so i had to hide my frustration most of the time,and turn it against myself. hence,depression. at least that is my theory. i admit i may be wrong.
well,we'll see how this goes.i will probably start taking it on sunday since i won't be driving far that day and i don't know how it is going to affect me.
wish me luck!
anyway,she said she was going to have the doctor prescribe adderall for me,but since it's a controlled substance they can't call in a prescription.i have to drive over and pick up the piece of paper.i wonder if lithium is a controlled substance? because i know people take that recreationally.
anyway,i'm not playing with this,and i wouldn't be taking it if i wasn't desperate to not keeping feeling lousy for the next 44 years (or whatever!) as i have the last 44 years.i am a bit nervous about taking it,and i'm hoping it will help.
i was a bit miffed though that the therapist told the doctor i basically had dysthmia...chronic low grade depression. well,maybe i do,but i think it's been caused by the a.d.d. and is not the primary problem...which is why i'm trying a stimulant and not an antidepressant.
when i was a kid,i was unhappy a lot. i was frustrated and got angry and kicked a couple of holes in walls. does that sound like depression? then i got to be an adolescent and such tantrums were socialized out of me,so i had to hide my frustration most of the time,and turn it against myself. hence,depression. at least that is my theory. i admit i may be wrong.
well,we'll see how this goes.i will probably start taking it on sunday since i won't be driving far that day and i don't know how it is going to affect me.
wish me luck!
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Just don't forget, it doesn't all go away in a day.
Here's to the beginning of the rest of your life. *cheers*
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