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bluegreen17) wrote2003-10-10 06:04 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-10-10 06:04 pm
clothes shopping hell
okaaaay. i'm exhausted.
i left home at 2 today and just got home a little while ago,just before 6 p.m.
my mission today was to find some clothes to replace my increasingly ratty wardrobe. actually,i went to the free clothing place sponsored by the church on wednesday,but had very little luck there. i got two pairs of pants that ended up being too small...i've put on some weight,plus it's hard to tell sizes sometimes,since women's sizing is not consistent.
i hate clothes shopping.
now what i needed to find today was very simple and basic.a couple of pairs of cotton pants to wear to work,preferably black with khaki being second best. a cotton cardigan. a few turtlenecks. underwear.
i went to three different discount stores before hitting wal-mart. which i'm evil for even shopping at. but anyway...
most of the clothes are ugly...some of the styles are incredibly ugly,in general...or poorly made or ridiculously expensive,even in the discount places,or they didn't have my size,which isn't exactly a strange size...i'm kind of average weight with a few extra pounds,and 5'2" which is not incredibly rare in the female population. i'm not going to tell you my weight,because i never look my weight...maybe it's my stocky build or my musclar legs or whatever,but i weigh more than people think,which is a bonus in the universe of being a self-conscious female. okay,okay. i weigh about 145 lbs,which sounds enormous for my height. when i was sick for a long time,i was done to 125 lbs,and believe it or not,i looked too skinny at that weight. anyhow,who cares,right?
so clothes shopping is hell.i finally ended up getting the same old lee's relaxed-fit cotton pants i have been wearing (and wearing out) for the last couple of years. the size 10's are too snug and the size 12's are too baggy so i get the size 12 and feel really sad that i can't look incredibly attractive as i would if i was wearing pants that fit well. it's such a tragedy. sigh.
now,i don't know much about clothing shopping seasons,because of course i hate clothes shopping and have very little money anyway,but i can't understand if i'm too early or too late or just living in the wrong universe when it's october and i can't find turtlenecks or cardigan sweaters at wal-mart. what's up with that?
actually,i should just do mail-order to l.l. bean...yes,folks,i'm not really that outdoorsey,being a bookworm and all,but those are my kind of clothes. basic stuff. i wish i were more artistic in the way i dress,but i have to buy really basic simple things in boring colors so things will match as my wardrobe is so small. years ago,i guess i had more patience. as well as the fact that i used to live in a city that had a couple of good thrift stores.
eek! i must interrupt this narrative to say that i just heard a loud buzzing noise and thought to look in the lampshape...you know how bugs are attracted to light...and there's this big bug that scares me and would be grotesque to squish. but i just remembered that i could catch it in a cup and cover with a piece of paper,and take it outside.
which is what i just did. the critter was quite lethargic (bulb-bathing can make you sleepy,i'm sure) so was easy to catch,and then i dumped him rather unceromoniously outside,he just up and flew away. i'm sure we're both happier now. anyway.
well,so the good news is that in recent months,after a quest of what seemed like several years,i finally found a bra that looks halfway decent and is comfortable,so i went and bought another one. i should just buy a case of them so i don't have to bra-hunt again for the rest of my life.
on the way home,i stopped at the natural foods store and got a few things,including some b-vitamins which i can't really afford but maybe it will help me be slightly happier. taking nexium for my stomach probably doesn't help b vitamin absorption,and you need those babies for mental health.
well,it would be nice if i had the energy to clean this place up a bit more before my sister or sisters come to visit tomorrow. not that it will upset them much,i don't think,but it depresses me to not get more done.i could use a roommate who loves to clean,but only with non-toxic cleaners. and who would not be bothered by my obsessive-compulsive habits,amongst other things. and who would hardly ever be here so i could have the place to myself. or maybe i just need a sugar daddy,but i'm not that kind of girl...
i left home at 2 today and just got home a little while ago,just before 6 p.m.
my mission today was to find some clothes to replace my increasingly ratty wardrobe. actually,i went to the free clothing place sponsored by the church on wednesday,but had very little luck there. i got two pairs of pants that ended up being too small...i've put on some weight,plus it's hard to tell sizes sometimes,since women's sizing is not consistent.
i hate clothes shopping.
now what i needed to find today was very simple and basic.a couple of pairs of cotton pants to wear to work,preferably black with khaki being second best. a cotton cardigan. a few turtlenecks. underwear.
i went to three different discount stores before hitting wal-mart. which i'm evil for even shopping at. but anyway...
most of the clothes are ugly...some of the styles are incredibly ugly,in general...or poorly made or ridiculously expensive,even in the discount places,or they didn't have my size,which isn't exactly a strange size...i'm kind of average weight with a few extra pounds,and 5'2" which is not incredibly rare in the female population. i'm not going to tell you my weight,because i never look my weight...maybe it's my stocky build or my musclar legs or whatever,but i weigh more than people think,which is a bonus in the universe of being a self-conscious female. okay,okay. i weigh about 145 lbs,which sounds enormous for my height. when i was sick for a long time,i was done to 125 lbs,and believe it or not,i looked too skinny at that weight. anyhow,who cares,right?
so clothes shopping is hell.i finally ended up getting the same old lee's relaxed-fit cotton pants i have been wearing (and wearing out) for the last couple of years. the size 10's are too snug and the size 12's are too baggy so i get the size 12 and feel really sad that i can't look incredibly attractive as i would if i was wearing pants that fit well. it's such a tragedy. sigh.
now,i don't know much about clothing shopping seasons,because of course i hate clothes shopping and have very little money anyway,but i can't understand if i'm too early or too late or just living in the wrong universe when it's october and i can't find turtlenecks or cardigan sweaters at wal-mart. what's up with that?
actually,i should just do mail-order to l.l. bean...yes,folks,i'm not really that outdoorsey,being a bookworm and all,but those are my kind of clothes. basic stuff. i wish i were more artistic in the way i dress,but i have to buy really basic simple things in boring colors so things will match as my wardrobe is so small. years ago,i guess i had more patience. as well as the fact that i used to live in a city that had a couple of good thrift stores.
eek! i must interrupt this narrative to say that i just heard a loud buzzing noise and thought to look in the lampshape...you know how bugs are attracted to light...and there's this big bug that scares me and would be grotesque to squish. but i just remembered that i could catch it in a cup and cover with a piece of paper,and take it outside.
which is what i just did. the critter was quite lethargic (bulb-bathing can make you sleepy,i'm sure) so was easy to catch,and then i dumped him rather unceromoniously outside,he just up and flew away. i'm sure we're both happier now. anyway.
well,so the good news is that in recent months,after a quest of what seemed like several years,i finally found a bra that looks halfway decent and is comfortable,so i went and bought another one. i should just buy a case of them so i don't have to bra-hunt again for the rest of my life.
on the way home,i stopped at the natural foods store and got a few things,including some b-vitamins which i can't really afford but maybe it will help me be slightly happier. taking nexium for my stomach probably doesn't help b vitamin absorption,and you need those babies for mental health.
well,it would be nice if i had the energy to clean this place up a bit more before my sister or sisters come to visit tomorrow. not that it will upset them much,i don't think,but it depresses me to not get more done.i could use a roommate who loves to clean,but only with non-toxic cleaners. and who would not be bothered by my obsessive-compulsive habits,amongst other things. and who would hardly ever be here so i could have the place to myself. or maybe i just need a sugar daddy,but i'm not that kind of girl...
hmm...
Now, would you move to Austin, or would I have to move to NH?
Re: hmm...
Re: hmm...
Know at least one very cool person there already.
Hmmm...
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The other thing that I have done is to remove the waistband of a pair of too large pants and put tucks in the top (they look best on me if they are put in, in back, a couple of inches over from the center back seam.) Shorten the waistband by cutting extra off the button side so you can get the waistband exactly the right length. The process sounds complicated, but it really simple. Be sure to make the tucks the same size on each side! What I found was that a couple of years later those were my favorite pants, they fit well and looked great.
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but thanks anyway!
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you are off of wellbutrin now?
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how are you doing these days? are you on a medication?
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i was on zoloft from march til july this year cause troubles at my working place...zoloft made me more frank and aggressively which led finally that i got fired....i am unemployed now....then in end of june i engaged a famous swiss healer cause my depression and my sexual problems and it worked very good. So i quit zoloft. Then the depressive patterns got again stronger after two month....so i rarely feel good for long...I enjoy to not to have to work, but on the other side i am afraid if i find a respectable job, cause i am 53 now, and taht's exactly the age which is not good to get fired.....so if i dont find a job in two years i lose the unemployment salary and would have to go to the social wellfaire office, what would strengthen my feelings of inferiority and waht would make life to a money-bare business for me....if it will come so it will also strenghten my hate for how society hands out money and jobs...
next week i have two employment-dates...the first
two since june.....well we will see....
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....of course you need someone special close to you... it's irresponsabel if you think about yourself you are not bearable
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(Anonymous) 2003-10-13 04:03 am (UTC)(link)patti