bluegreen17 | sharing the boredom

i'm bored. that can be a dangerous thing for me,because when i'm bored i have time to think of all the bad things and emptiness in my life and it's hard to be positive,so i tend to feel blue at the very least.

this often happens on sunday and monday evenings,my days off. after doing my chores for the day (which i hate) and playing around on the internet,and watching the movie of the day,i get tired of those things and want to be with people in the 3d world. but i have no one to be with.

i generally can't read books or magazines much anymore because i get bored with them really easily. i find reading people's diaries more interesting,but as mentioned before,eventually i get bored just reading and i want to be with people.

oh,well. i'll probably just eat a snack i don't really need.

i've found a few overeaters communities on livejournal,but what i am is an emotional eater. at this time i am not overweight. in fact,in general i don't eat that much. i eat two good meals a day,and i add dessert. then i usually have one sugary snack though i try to have peanut butter or something with it too so i get some nutritional value.
the thing that isn't good is that even though i eat those two good meals,i also eat a fair amount of sugar. sometimes i eat pretzels or baked potato chips which is a little bit better than sugar,but not really all that great. the reason i only eat two meals is that i get up around 11 a.m. and eat lunch. and then at work i have supper around 6. i probably should make my evening snack more of a meal,but it's hard because i'm at work,and my breaktime is my suppertime.
i eat an apple and a banana almost every day before lunch. (about an hour before). most days i have a salad and natural vinegar free sauerkraut (which helps digestion) and then my lunch. i need to get in the habit of eating raw carrots at suppertime for the beta carotene. i eat rice and/or beans so i get fiber every day (apple with the peel is good too!) i get protein from most of my meals. i also have cooked veggies in addition to the salads most days.
so i do eat well but then i add the bad stuff,which i'm addicted too.

lately i've been so depressed that i've had a pint of ben and jerry's frozen yogurt every lunchtime for dessert. the fat content isn't that high,certainly nowhere near that of a pint of ice cream,which i can't digest anyway. but what isn't good is having so much dairy and the sugar and chocolate.

have you fallen asleep yet?
when i'm bored i'm boring. i probably should just shut up. thankfully,i know that no one is forced to read my entries!

sharing the boredom

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