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bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-20 12:31 am
bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-20 12:31 am
windows open!
i did want to mention that instead of being in the nineties today it was in the eighties...and even though it was still pretty hot we opened the windows and let in the fresh warm air...thankfully the humidity was low as well...and it felt so heavenly.
i even went with mom for a short walk after supper...usually i'm too lazy or the weather outside is just too unpleasant or unbearable for my skin that likes to break into heat rashes.
we haven't had open windows for over a week. i wouldnt want to live somewhere where it is hot and/or humid for weeks on end. i dont' like the cold much either,or high humidity! so it's hard to know where the ideal place would be for me to live!
i even went with mom for a short walk after supper...usually i'm too lazy or the weather outside is just too unpleasant or unbearable for my skin that likes to break into heat rashes.
we haven't had open windows for over a week. i wouldnt want to live somewhere where it is hot and/or humid for weeks on end. i dont' like the cold much either,or high humidity! so it's hard to know where the ideal place would be for me to live!
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did you get and read the email i sent you yesterday with the continuation of the krishnamurti talk about the purpose of life?
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i just got that email today,as i don't check the u2mail email regularly. how did you get that email address? from 'feldspar and rubies' maybe? anyway,if you send anything by email in the future,you can just send it to moonriver@livejournal.com and i'll see it soon. anyway,thanks.
i have to admit,i didn't read the entire thing. i kind of jumped in and read it from the middle to the end (my attention span has been especially short these days),but i think i got the important info anyway.
it's funny,because i am trying to understand my own confustion,and sometimes i have moments of clarity,but other times my brain is in such pain it doesn't believe what my 'clear' brain has discovered,if i have written it down somewhere....it just doesn't ring true while my brain is depressed and/or it seems true but i don't feel able to make use of the information. if it isn't written down in a book or elsewhere,and even then sometime,i forget about it.
so i don't know which is the wiser brain times...with the depressive brain,though it is much more narrow,or the 'clear' brain,which has a better view? maybe i've answered my own question there!
for instance,one of the wisest books i've ever read is called 'the lazy man's guide to enlightenment' by thaddeus golas. it's out of print,but it's on the net for free and can be downloaded.if you google it,it shouldn't be hard to find.
this morning i had a time of clear mind/inspiration which has given me a boost. i was going to write about it in my journal,but i find it hard to articulate well and don't feel motivated to do so. and yet,i feel it would be a good thing to share in case there is some value and truth in it,and my gut feeling is that it does.
at the very least,i should write some rambling notes for myself,so i will at least remember it for myself and maybe i can rewrite it later,though i tend to be lazy and probably won't.
it's just like i have sometimes had dreams that have given me important messages,and it is good to write them down and reflect on them later.
it's not so much that it is hard to type it out..what is hard is organizing my thoughts so it makes sense to someone reading it,and at times that seems like too much effort.
however,i will say that my morning thoughts today have inspired me to go back to reading the books of barry neil kauffman,especially one called 'happiness is a choice'. and also,i borrowed a book from the library that i'd seen before called 'change your brain,change your life'. i think there are many ways to change brain chemistry,including working on thinking patterns and habits. sometimes,though,it is very hard to do,so i still may try taking zoloft for a while to give myself support while i work on getting a healthier,,maybe happier brain.
do you think you derived a benefit from zoloft even after you stopped taking it,like you learned something while you wer taking it? i'm curious about that. i also might try st. john's wort. have you ever tried that?
thanks again,and you can call me moonriver if you like,but that's just the journal name i came up with and i'd probably have changed it by now (because i like changing names!) except that it costs money to change it,and it's good enough. i like the song,and the movie (breakfast at tiffany's) that it's from and it's not a bad name,but my name is diane and that might be easier!
boy,this is a long note!
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