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bluegreen17) wrote2004-03-03 11:04 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2004-03-03 11:04 pm
canary in a coal mine
i don't relate to the book the highly sensitive person by elaine aron for no reason.
a few months back,i had to change my work schedule from 3-11:30 to 1:30-10. it took me a while to adjust,but all-in-all it's been good to get out of bed earlier...more sunlight,for one thing! one not-so-good thing is that the traffic both ways is a lot worse at 12:30 and 10 which is when i'm commuting.
anyhow,a few weeks ago my employers decided to require all full-timers to work one late shift per week,which means until midnight. i wasn't too thrilled about this,as if i don't keep to a regular schedule of sleeping,i get messed up. however,i didn't push it and gave it a go the last two weeks. heck,it just messed me up,made me overtired and more depressed than usual.
so i decided to ask my therapist to write me a note,like a doctor will write you a note so you can wear sneakers if you have leg/foot problems. i felt a bit strange asking but my therapist didn't seem to think it too weird and was more than happy to write me a note saying that i have trouble with changes in my work schedule and would function better on a regular schedule,and requesting that i be able to do that.
today i had to talk to one of my bosses about it and i was kind of nervous about that. i felt apologetic,but actually he was very nice about it. we've actually discussed having symptoms of ocd before,so he's not totally in the dark about weird mental states. he said ocd is this irrational state that you know is irrational,but you still feel great anxiety if you don't do certain things.
he's going to talk to my other boss and then i will perhaps talk to her myself,but in the meantime he actually offered to change my saturday night to 1:30-10 for this week until a final decision was made. i didn't expect that and thought it was very considerate.
meanwhile,i've been reading stuff about advaita/nonduality which i first studied a couple of years ago. some of the stuff is sinking in better this time around. at the moment,i'm reading books by douglas harding,ramesh balsekar,and osho.
spring is giving us a preview. we've had beautifully balmy weather for the last few days. it feels great.in the fifties.and the furnace doesn't have to run much! so it's been nice.
and that's it for now,i think. oh,except that three of my sisters have run off to florida to watch spring-training baseball games.my brother-in-law surprised my sister with this plan to give her a real vacation...he's staying home with the three kids,and made all the arrangements so my other two sisters were going with her. it's possible i may have been able to go,but these days i like staying home too much! not to mention florida is not really on my list of places i want to visit...heat,humidity,bugs...i think i'll pass. even though my dad has always wanted to live there since he and mom went there on their honeymoon.
me-i just want to go to scotland and faint and weep over its beauty. and then maybe i'd go to ireland and then paris and normandie and bretagne in france,which is where most of my ancestors come from. too bad everyone hates the french. oh,well. c'est la vie.
a few months back,i had to change my work schedule from 3-11:30 to 1:30-10. it took me a while to adjust,but all-in-all it's been good to get out of bed earlier...more sunlight,for one thing! one not-so-good thing is that the traffic both ways is a lot worse at 12:30 and 10 which is when i'm commuting.
anyhow,a few weeks ago my employers decided to require all full-timers to work one late shift per week,which means until midnight. i wasn't too thrilled about this,as if i don't keep to a regular schedule of sleeping,i get messed up. however,i didn't push it and gave it a go the last two weeks. heck,it just messed me up,made me overtired and more depressed than usual.
so i decided to ask my therapist to write me a note,like a doctor will write you a note so you can wear sneakers if you have leg/foot problems. i felt a bit strange asking but my therapist didn't seem to think it too weird and was more than happy to write me a note saying that i have trouble with changes in my work schedule and would function better on a regular schedule,and requesting that i be able to do that.
today i had to talk to one of my bosses about it and i was kind of nervous about that. i felt apologetic,but actually he was very nice about it. we've actually discussed having symptoms of ocd before,so he's not totally in the dark about weird mental states. he said ocd is this irrational state that you know is irrational,but you still feel great anxiety if you don't do certain things.
he's going to talk to my other boss and then i will perhaps talk to her myself,but in the meantime he actually offered to change my saturday night to 1:30-10 for this week until a final decision was made. i didn't expect that and thought it was very considerate.
meanwhile,i've been reading stuff about advaita/nonduality which i first studied a couple of years ago. some of the stuff is sinking in better this time around. at the moment,i'm reading books by douglas harding,ramesh balsekar,and osho.
spring is giving us a preview. we've had beautifully balmy weather for the last few days. it feels great.in the fifties.and the furnace doesn't have to run much! so it's been nice.
and that's it for now,i think. oh,except that three of my sisters have run off to florida to watch spring-training baseball games.my brother-in-law surprised my sister with this plan to give her a real vacation...he's staying home with the three kids,and made all the arrangements so my other two sisters were going with her. it's possible i may have been able to go,but these days i like staying home too much! not to mention florida is not really on my list of places i want to visit...heat,humidity,bugs...i think i'll pass. even though my dad has always wanted to live there since he and mom went there on their honeymoon.
me-i just want to go to scotland and faint and weep over its beauty. and then maybe i'd go to ireland and then paris and normandie and bretagne in france,which is where most of my ancestors come from. too bad everyone hates the french. oh,well. c'est la vie.
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*Grins*
Once upon a time, I had this idea that I wanted to see three European cities before I died: London, Pairs, and Rome. Until I find a fortune, sadly, such plans will have to wait. I am stuck in southwestern Ohio for now.
*Shrugs*
By the way, random comment. Hope you don't mind.
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(Anonymous) 2004-03-09 05:47 am (UTC)(link)love,
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p.s.
we had some spring going on here too. :o) i felt like a flower unfolding in the sunlight. :o)
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