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bluegreen17) wrote2004-03-17 05:41 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2004-03-17 05:41 pm
green
band of brothers is my crack cocaine. well,at least it doesn't impair my driving.
not too much,anyway.
i really haven't written much in a long time. that can be a good thing,though,when one considers the alternative. when i first started my open diary,i just wrote about how miserable i was A LOT. so just be glad i got sick of writing about it,not that the miserableness went away,for the most part.but it could...
and i haven't been able to conjure up the creativity to make my life seem amusing or interesting.
today it's been snowing. and snowing, and snowing. how flakey is that? at least it hasn't added up to much.
i don't know what this means,if anything,but recently i've been re-reading things...basically,the metaphysical/philosophical/spiritual/whatever kind of things i've been reading for years.a little while ago,i re-read gary zukac's now-popular seat of the soul.. i wasn't very impressed with it the first time i read it in the mid-80's,and liked it only slightly-better the second time 'round. i don't get why a lot of things are popular.
today i finished re-reading alan watts' the book:on the taboo against knowing who you are. the basic premise is that i am god. but so are you. the first time i read it,though,i focused more on that first half and tried to change the weather. just kidding about the weather,though i did try a cloud-dispersing experiment that i read about in richard bach's illusions and convinced myself it worked. but anyway,this time it's just more apparent to me that,yeah,i am god,but so are you and it's all god. yeah,i've been on the side of pantheism for quite a while anyway. but really,in many ways,i know nothing. what is it that plato said?
something like 'i know i know nothing,therefore i know more than you do.' cracks me up.
and i'm reading bits and pieces of elaine pagels the gnostic gospels for the first time. i tried to get into this book many times before,but never did.
i don't know what this has to do with anything,but hey that's some of what i've been up to. and what i've been up to is usually what my mind's been up to.
according to popular wisdom,i'm too much 'in my head'. but who's to say that's a bad thing? that's 'natural' for me,but the theory is that i'm depressed because i don't feel my emotions.i don't know if that's really true. i certainly had no trouble expressing my emotions during this past week,as well i should have.
anyway,that's enough babbling for now...
eta: oh,and,when i went to the bank today i complimented the teller on her green fingernail polish. and then it struck me...duh...it's st. patrick's day!
beannachtai na feile padraig agat!
not too much,anyway.
i really haven't written much in a long time. that can be a good thing,though,when one considers the alternative. when i first started my open diary,i just wrote about how miserable i was A LOT. so just be glad i got sick of writing about it,not that the miserableness went away,for the most part.but it could...
and i haven't been able to conjure up the creativity to make my life seem amusing or interesting.
today it's been snowing. and snowing, and snowing. how flakey is that? at least it hasn't added up to much.
i don't know what this means,if anything,but recently i've been re-reading things...basically,the metaphysical/philosophical/spiritual/whatever kind of things i've been reading for years.a little while ago,i re-read gary zukac's now-popular seat of the soul.. i wasn't very impressed with it the first time i read it in the mid-80's,and liked it only slightly-better the second time 'round. i don't get why a lot of things are popular.
today i finished re-reading alan watts' the book:on the taboo against knowing who you are. the basic premise is that i am god. but so are you. the first time i read it,though,i focused more on that first half and tried to change the weather. just kidding about the weather,though i did try a cloud-dispersing experiment that i read about in richard bach's illusions and convinced myself it worked. but anyway,this time it's just more apparent to me that,yeah,i am god,but so are you and it's all god. yeah,i've been on the side of pantheism for quite a while anyway. but really,in many ways,i know nothing. what is it that plato said?
something like 'i know i know nothing,therefore i know more than you do.' cracks me up.
and i'm reading bits and pieces of elaine pagels the gnostic gospels for the first time. i tried to get into this book many times before,but never did.
i don't know what this has to do with anything,but hey that's some of what i've been up to. and what i've been up to is usually what my mind's been up to.
according to popular wisdom,i'm too much 'in my head'. but who's to say that's a bad thing? that's 'natural' for me,but the theory is that i'm depressed because i don't feel my emotions.i don't know if that's really true. i certainly had no trouble expressing my emotions during this past week,as well i should have.
anyway,that's enough babbling for now...
eta: oh,and,when i went to the bank today i complimented the teller on her green fingernail polish. and then it struck me...duh...it's st. patrick's day!
beannachtai na feile padraig agat!