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bluegreen17) wrote2004-04-11 02:28 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2004-04-11 02:28 pm
rebirth postponed
feeling rather glum this easter day.i could have gone to my sister's but i didn't want to get up early and i didn't want to drive out that way,so i'm sitting here wondering why my brain hates me and why it has taken over my life and what i can do about it.
i was going to 'turn over a new leaf' today and make up some kind of simple ritual of rebirth for myself,but i don't feel up to it. i love easter,but maybe i'll have to try to resurrect myself on another day. i know we're all caterpillars who will be,or already are,butterflies,but i feel like i can't get out of the cocoon. maybe i'm not 'supposed' to yet...
i want to be a happy old lady like maude in 'harold and maude',though i'm not too sure about sleeping with someone 60 years younger than myself.not something to worry about though,since i'm 'only' 45.
perhaps i will go for a walk in a little while before it gets all cloudy and rains. there's still blue sky yet.
i was going to 'turn over a new leaf' today and make up some kind of simple ritual of rebirth for myself,but i don't feel up to it. i love easter,but maybe i'll have to try to resurrect myself on another day. i know we're all caterpillars who will be,or already are,butterflies,but i feel like i can't get out of the cocoon. maybe i'm not 'supposed' to yet...
i want to be a happy old lady like maude in 'harold and maude',though i'm not too sure about sleeping with someone 60 years younger than myself.not something to worry about though,since i'm 'only' 45.
perhaps i will go for a walk in a little while before it gets all cloudy and rains. there's still blue sky yet.
Easter rebirth
you are not old!!!! and i'm not just saying that cause i am so very close to your age.... ;)
i pray for the energy(?) motivation(?) to pray for Easter rebirth.
it's been a rough Lent.
peace
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