sigh...

[bluegreen17]

i don't exactly know why,but i'm feeling especially sad and lonely right now.i'm glad i've got some friends on the net.thanks.

i'm tired of working,i think. i want to just stay home and write and read on the net,maybe some book and magazine reading,and watch movies. oh,and i just want to sit around and eat too.i want to find some friends and have interesting conversations.

i've very tired of work and being bored and not having many people that i look forward to seeing,or maybe i just massively miss having a crush on someone.i was so lucky to have a crush on my friend michael for two years...sometimes it was a little sad because he was engaged and so it was unrequited...but still i could dream,and chat with him,and be a little thrilled. there was sparkle in my life.

the last year and a half i think have been the worst of my life. i've had some tough times,but my problems have never snowballed like this and they didn't seem to last forever,and most importantly i had someone to be friends with.

i can't go on,i'll go on*

*samuel beckett

Comments

[chaiya.livejournal.com]

When I'm feeling down, Harry Potter often gets me back up. I've been reading the reparo community some, and it's not half bad. :) I'm even thinking about joining. Have you read the HP books?

[gerry.livejournal.com]

did you get my email about my experiences about zoloft...sent it to moonriver@livej...com

i'a going to write another one just now...concerning your stomach

[bluegreen17]

i started reading book one and was bored almost immediately. that's not necessarily a reflection on it's goodness though...i get bored really easily. also,i just think the subject matter isn't really my cup of tea these days.
thanks for the idea though!

[kittycat33.livejournal.com]

I am alone a lot of the time, but surprisingly, not lonely. My therapist and psychiatrist both want me to be more social but it just takes too much energy to keep it up. Same with romantic attachments- I tend to get too deeply involved and ignore other parts of my life. I'm pretty much a loner, and sometimes it bothers me, because I feel like I should have IRL friends, but I just don't.

[bluegreen17]

you know,if you don't and you're okay with that,i don't see why it's a problem. it would be a problem if you want to go out and do things with people and you had no opportunities,you know? don't let other people's shoulds get to you! in fact,i wish i was more okay with being alone since i am so much. though i'm not because i'm with mom and i want to be alone,AND i want to have friends to visit with and i have neither right now!