sigh...

[bluegreen17]

i don't exactly know why,but i'm feeling especially sad and lonely right now.i'm glad i've got some friends on the net.thanks.

i'm tired of working,i think. i want to just stay home and write and read on the net,maybe some book and magazine reading,and watch movies. oh,and i just want to sit around and eat too.i want to find some friends and have interesting conversations.

i've very tired of work and being bored and not having many people that i look forward to seeing,or maybe i just massively miss having a crush on someone.i was so lucky to have a crush on my friend michael for two years...sometimes it was a little sad because he was engaged and so it was unrequited...but still i could dream,and chat with him,and be a little thrilled. there was sparkle in my life.

the last year and a half i think have been the worst of my life. i've had some tough times,but my problems have never snowballed like this and they didn't seem to last forever,and most importantly i had someone to be friends with.

i can't go on,i'll go on*

*samuel beckett

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[bluegreen17]

i started reading book one and was bored almost immediately. that's not necessarily a reflection on it's goodness though...i get bored really easily. also,i just think the subject matter isn't really my cup of tea these days.
thanks for the idea though!