is anything good ever going to happen to me?

[bluegreen17]

one of my sister's who lives in the general area wrote back and suggested i probably should try to get mom into the dr. tomorrow. i didnt think of that myself. she can't do it because it's her kids first day of school.
so it looks like one more thing i need to do...even though i don't feel like doing much of anything,and can hardly get the things i need to do for myself done since i'm so horribly depressed. it's going to be hard to go out and do chores when i'm waiting for a call back from the doctor's office...i just cant handle having to take care of my mother anymore.

i didn't want to have children because i hate taking care of people...including myself. and i need help myself now,but apparently there is no help...

i'm really sick of this fucking life.

Comments

[godinshackles.livejournal.com]

Please don't lose hope. Its easy to slip into a deeper and deeper depression when one is having to juggle responsibilities around, I know, trust me. But if you persevere long enough, things do start to improve for the better.

[bluegreen17]

thanks for the word of encouragement.it does help. things have been going very badly for me for over a year now and so it's hard to believe things will get better,but i hope they do someday.