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bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-31 01:24 am
bluegreen17) wrote2002-08-31 01:24 am
purple pills
unfortunately,purple makes me think of one annoying dinosaur.but there are many other good things associated with purple. it's the color of royalty (and i think i was royalty in a past life because i loathe picking up after other people,i'm a lousy servant...which is why the messy people in the store piss me off so badly) and i think red and blue together make purple,and red and blue are my favorite colors. and there's one of the most beautiful books in the world,'the color purple' and the movie isn't too shabby either. and of course,when i am an old woman,i shall wear purple,so since i'm middle aged,it's purple pills!
here's the scoop.
yeah,i had my appointment with the nurse practioner today.for one thing,my stomach has been better the last couple of weeks.(knock on virtual wood) i told her i stopped eating chocolate and didn't feel any better so i started eating it again,and she said if chocolate doesn't bother me,eat it. so i have her blessing on that. cinnamon pop tarts seem to irritate my stomach though,but not strawberry ones,so it's the cinnamon,which i guess is possible. anyway,i am now going to try to gear down to a less strong stomach medicine and see how it goes. she said i may have a small amount of nausea for 24 hours,but if my stomach is better,it won't last longer than that (i'm going from 20% stomach acid to 80% so the stomach would have to adjust a little.) so i hope i can do that,and eventually stop taking stomach medication altogether,but we shall wait and see.
next,my head. i told her i tried the adderall for two weeks and it didn't seem to help my distractedness so i stopped it. but i told her i was very depressed for the last two weeks right up until a few days ago when i started my period.and that my pmses are getting to be really terrible and i get so horribly depressed. so,she said she wanted to try me on wellbutrin,which surprised me because i thought she'd go for the zoloft,which is what my mother (and one of my sisters) takes.she said the wellbutrin is used for both depression and a.d.d.,so she thought that might help me more. she gave me a month's worth of samples. i haven't decided when i will start taking it because i don't know what side effects i will have,and i'm going to be switching my stomach medication,but i want to start it fairly soon. i may start tomorrow,and switch the stomach meds when i run out of the one i have in 3 days.i am trying not to get my hopes up to high,but it really would be nice to feel good for a while and accomplish some things i need to do.my to-do list is astronomical it seems!
she also gave me a prescription for clonazapan in case i have trouble sleeping or get too agitated while i get used to the wellbutrin. i hope i don't need to take that,but i have the prescription in case i need it.
when i walked out of the office,i felt like a drug addict with my samples and two prescriptions!
i'm hoping some day i'll be drug-free again though.
right now i have a headache. it's rare for me and it's probably either seasonal allergens or outgassing from the new carpeting...supposedly carpeting has formaldehyde...lovely,eh?
it could also be because i had a little crying episode at work. that doesn't really happen very often,but i've felt very sensitive lately. it was very hot in our breakroom and the thermostat read 84 degrees...it didn't feel too bad because we have fans,but i was concerned because my month's worth of wellbutrin was in my locker. i don't have much common sense and i didn't know who to ask if i should be concerned about this. i was talking to one of the managers...she was doing several things and i asked her opinion,but she didn't really know plus she was juggling a few things,and i started crying because i said i used to call my mother when i had a common sense question,and now my mother doesn't really have a brain anymore,and then i started crying. it sounds infantile,but it's probably part of my grieving process for the relationship i have never had with my mother and never will...never being able to reach her. and losing even the little connection i have with her day by day. she's been having trouble sleeping so when i've gotten up in the morning around 11,she is still sleeping. and then i wonder if she died in her sleep,so that makes me nervous and sad,but i guess dying in your sleep would be a peaceful way to go.anyway,i ended up asking a couple of my coworkers and they said the pills should be fine,and it probably wasn't really 84 degrees in there,so that calmed me down.
it's funny,in the reading i've done about people with a.d.d. lately,there was one bit about how many people with a.d.d. need reassurance a lot,and if you have a child with a.d.d. to try to give them that.
anyhow,i'm hoping with some sleep tonight,my head will feel better by morning. it also might be the fact that the humidity is high (like 90%) even though it's not very hot.
so wish me luck with the purple pills!
here's the scoop.
yeah,i had my appointment with the nurse practioner today.for one thing,my stomach has been better the last couple of weeks.(knock on virtual wood) i told her i stopped eating chocolate and didn't feel any better so i started eating it again,and she said if chocolate doesn't bother me,eat it. so i have her blessing on that. cinnamon pop tarts seem to irritate my stomach though,but not strawberry ones,so it's the cinnamon,which i guess is possible. anyway,i am now going to try to gear down to a less strong stomach medicine and see how it goes. she said i may have a small amount of nausea for 24 hours,but if my stomach is better,it won't last longer than that (i'm going from 20% stomach acid to 80% so the stomach would have to adjust a little.) so i hope i can do that,and eventually stop taking stomach medication altogether,but we shall wait and see.
next,my head. i told her i tried the adderall for two weeks and it didn't seem to help my distractedness so i stopped it. but i told her i was very depressed for the last two weeks right up until a few days ago when i started my period.and that my pmses are getting to be really terrible and i get so horribly depressed. so,she said she wanted to try me on wellbutrin,which surprised me because i thought she'd go for the zoloft,which is what my mother (and one of my sisters) takes.she said the wellbutrin is used for both depression and a.d.d.,so she thought that might help me more. she gave me a month's worth of samples. i haven't decided when i will start taking it because i don't know what side effects i will have,and i'm going to be switching my stomach medication,but i want to start it fairly soon. i may start tomorrow,and switch the stomach meds when i run out of the one i have in 3 days.i am trying not to get my hopes up to high,but it really would be nice to feel good for a while and accomplish some things i need to do.my to-do list is astronomical it seems!
she also gave me a prescription for clonazapan in case i have trouble sleeping or get too agitated while i get used to the wellbutrin. i hope i don't need to take that,but i have the prescription in case i need it.
when i walked out of the office,i felt like a drug addict with my samples and two prescriptions!
i'm hoping some day i'll be drug-free again though.
right now i have a headache. it's rare for me and it's probably either seasonal allergens or outgassing from the new carpeting...supposedly carpeting has formaldehyde...lovely,eh?
it could also be because i had a little crying episode at work. that doesn't really happen very often,but i've felt very sensitive lately. it was very hot in our breakroom and the thermostat read 84 degrees...it didn't feel too bad because we have fans,but i was concerned because my month's worth of wellbutrin was in my locker. i don't have much common sense and i didn't know who to ask if i should be concerned about this. i was talking to one of the managers...she was doing several things and i asked her opinion,but she didn't really know plus she was juggling a few things,and i started crying because i said i used to call my mother when i had a common sense question,and now my mother doesn't really have a brain anymore,and then i started crying. it sounds infantile,but it's probably part of my grieving process for the relationship i have never had with my mother and never will...never being able to reach her. and losing even the little connection i have with her day by day. she's been having trouble sleeping so when i've gotten up in the morning around 11,she is still sleeping. and then i wonder if she died in her sleep,so that makes me nervous and sad,but i guess dying in your sleep would be a peaceful way to go.anyway,i ended up asking a couple of my coworkers and they said the pills should be fine,and it probably wasn't really 84 degrees in there,so that calmed me down.
it's funny,in the reading i've done about people with a.d.d. lately,there was one bit about how many people with a.d.d. need reassurance a lot,and if you have a child with a.d.d. to try to give them that.
anyhow,i'm hoping with some sleep tonight,my head will feel better by morning. it also might be the fact that the humidity is high (like 90%) even though it's not very hot.
so wish me luck with the purple pills!
Good luck with the purple pills! :)
Sorry you cried at work, that must have been horrible, especially considering the reason behind the tears. (((((hugs)))))
Re: Good luck with the purple pills! :)
fortunately,i work with a lot of very kind people. although i freaked one of my bosses out because of the crying...but she's new...all the other bosses are used to my emotionalism and love me anyway! they're great.
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did you have to take the wellbutrin with food? i'm concerned about that because i was told to take two doses 12 hours apart and i don't eat meals that far apart...i only eat two meals a day 4-6 hours apart!
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Not sure if you have to take the Wellbutrin with food; since I take other meds too for bipolar I always eat before I take my pills.
I hope the meds help you!
purple pills
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