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bluegreen17) wrote2005-08-28 07:19 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2005-08-28 07:19 pm
a little epiphany
good news from last week:
i found out i could go two days without chocolate and not kill anybody. and not only that,but that i could actually conjure up a good mood as well. what a happy surprise! it was just an accidental experiment,brought on by what may have been (since it was 'going around') a nasty stomach flu,but i wasn't sure because my stomach has done some funny things to me at times.
anyway,on the third day,someone brought in yummy chewy brownies to work and i couldn't resist,but i was fine. the next day was chocolateless,though,because i was kind of curious to see how much i could survive without it. of course,i am indebted to tiger's milk carob peanut butter bars and newman's ginger creme cookies as substitutes for my success. i'm not ready yet to find out if i can eschew sugar and still be happy,but i think maybe i can if i could do it without chocolate. i've tried to stop eating chocolate before (not because i think it's necessarily bad for you--in some ways,it's good for you--but because i haven't quite amended the belief system conjured up by someone that chocolate can aggravate stomach sensitivity.)
on the fourth day,someone brought in dunkin' munchkins,and i love donuts,though i rarely buy them or eat them because i still believe fried foods are bad for you. anyway,i helped myself to a couple of chocolate ones. yum. and since my stomach has been better,i have had some chocolate the last two days,but in smaller amounts than i had become accustomed to consuming--which was six or so cookies containing chocolate in some form per day.
the nicest thing was to accidentally learn that i could be happy without chocolate. not that i have been ecstatically happy,but i did manage to talk myself into a pretty good mood during my work week,and that's something.
for me,an epiphany!
i found out i could go two days without chocolate and not kill anybody. and not only that,but that i could actually conjure up a good mood as well. what a happy surprise! it was just an accidental experiment,brought on by what may have been (since it was 'going around') a nasty stomach flu,but i wasn't sure because my stomach has done some funny things to me at times.
anyway,on the third day,someone brought in yummy chewy brownies to work and i couldn't resist,but i was fine. the next day was chocolateless,though,because i was kind of curious to see how much i could survive without it. of course,i am indebted to tiger's milk carob peanut butter bars and newman's ginger creme cookies as substitutes for my success. i'm not ready yet to find out if i can eschew sugar and still be happy,but i think maybe i can if i could do it without chocolate. i've tried to stop eating chocolate before (not because i think it's necessarily bad for you--in some ways,it's good for you--but because i haven't quite amended the belief system conjured up by someone that chocolate can aggravate stomach sensitivity.)
on the fourth day,someone brought in dunkin' munchkins,and i love donuts,though i rarely buy them or eat them because i still believe fried foods are bad for you. anyway,i helped myself to a couple of chocolate ones. yum. and since my stomach has been better,i have had some chocolate the last two days,but in smaller amounts than i had become accustomed to consuming--which was six or so cookies containing chocolate in some form per day.
the nicest thing was to accidentally learn that i could be happy without chocolate. not that i have been ecstatically happy,but i did manage to talk myself into a pretty good mood during my work week,and that's something.
for me,an epiphany!