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bluegreen17) wrote2002-05-27 05:20 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-05-27 05:20 pm
memory babe
memory babe was a nickname that was given to jack kerouac as a child,because he had such a good memory. actually,when i was younger,i had a good memory too,but as the years go by...well,hell,there's more to remember. anyway,it seems that jk did have a good memory,because he allegedly remembered entire conversations which he later used in his fiction.
i was going to title this entry 'memorial' but i've always liked the sound of memory babe so what the heck.
today has been an interesting memorial day. i dont' think the town had a parade,but i don't often even read the local paper,so i dont' know. i've never really gotten into living in this community,other than the sense of community and all the regular customers i got to know in my six years at the natural foods store.
when i live in littlecity for eleven years i really did a lot that was offered there. granted,it's a bigger place. but it was also my illustrious twenties,and i just did more in my twenties than i've done since. for one thing,i had more money.for another,i lived right in the downtown area of littlecity,in a nice rooming house that was inexpensive and had a great onsite landlord and landlady. and i guess i was just younger then. one of these days i'm hoping for a renaissance so i can be one of those cool older people...but right now i'm very poor and it's a challenge to live much of a life with hardly any money. well,we'll see how it goes.
i got up at ten o'clock this morning,which is early for me. if i can,i usually get up around noon,which is ten hours of sleep/rest since i usually go to bed at 2 a.m.
most days though i have to get up around 11 a.m. because i have chores to do before work or even on my so-called 'days off'.
for some reason,i felt ambitious this morning,a very rare event,but it was great. so i got up and did my last load of laundry for the weekend and took down my garbage. it was dark,cloudy and humid this morning,but later on the sun came out and the barometric pressure went up,meaning it was dryer and the air was no longer stagnant,which is much more as i like it. it's been a really nice day,in the seventies (fahrenheit) i'd guess. almost too hot for my skin condition,but i didn't quite break out into a rash,so that's good.
after lunch and finishing laundry,mom and i went out for a walk. it is lilac season and when we walk by some of the lilac bushes,the scent is soooo heavenly. lilac season is so short,but i love it. we also walked a bit in the cemetary down the street. it's such a beautiful place for living human beings...different kinds of trees,away from cars and noise... i love it.
when we got back,i went out to finish my grocery shopping. i also stopped at the video store and i think it took me a half hour to choose something. i was looking through the older videos because they are cheaper to rent. i'm extremely fussy. i like drama the best,but i've seen many of them or they don't appeal to me. ah,well...i was actually going to rent 'what about bob?' with bill murray which is a comedy about someone with obsessive compulsive disorder and his psychiatrist. anyway,it wasn't there. so i got a drama starring demi moore which is about a women who lives two lives and one of them is just a dream,and the whole premise of exploring 'reality' interests me. i also got 'bringing out the dead' because nicholas cage is in it. i don't think he's that great an actor,but i think he has beautiful eyes and has charisma,so i rented that. ha.
as i was on my way to the supermarket,i bumped into the ex-wife and two daughters of a friend of mine who died last november. he wasn't much older than me,and died of cancer. it's still weird to think of him not being here on this planet any more. when he died,i especially felt bad for his daughters,who are 11 and 7,because they were close to him,he was their dad,and they are so young.
anyway,they looked good. i hadn't seen them in a long time. the older daughter used to hang out with me for a couple of hours every week at the natural food store waiting to go home with her dad. i asked her if she remembered me,and she did. it was really great to see them.
and this being memorial day,i thought that was so appropriate.
i came home and i've been reading a diary that i found by night haunter. every once in a while i find a diary and read it from start to finish. night haunter is very thoughtful and interesting. i can relate to a lot of what he says.
i cranked up some great tunes. first,u2's 'in god's country' from joshua tree. i looove that song and played it really loud. then i listened to my 'signature song' by foo fighters...'aurora'. after that,i listened to r.e.m.'s beautiful album
'murmur'. if you haven't ever heard the song 'perfect circle' you haven't lived,in my opinion. i also got to hear it a few times live back in '89,the year i saw them play six times in one year. for a person who likes to stay home,that was a lot for me! the good ole days. and one of these days,maybe i'll come up with some new good ole days!
(that may be the ben and jerry's speaking. i'm allowing myself chocolate only once a week in order to heal my digestion,and my choice of chocolate is a pint of b&j's halfbaked frozen yogurt...it's half chocolate chip cookie dough and half chocolate fudge brownie. it was,yes,orgasmic!)
i was going to title this entry 'memorial' but i've always liked the sound of memory babe so what the heck.
today has been an interesting memorial day. i dont' think the town had a parade,but i don't often even read the local paper,so i dont' know. i've never really gotten into living in this community,other than the sense of community and all the regular customers i got to know in my six years at the natural foods store.
when i live in littlecity for eleven years i really did a lot that was offered there. granted,it's a bigger place. but it was also my illustrious twenties,and i just did more in my twenties than i've done since. for one thing,i had more money.for another,i lived right in the downtown area of littlecity,in a nice rooming house that was inexpensive and had a great onsite landlord and landlady. and i guess i was just younger then. one of these days i'm hoping for a renaissance so i can be one of those cool older people...but right now i'm very poor and it's a challenge to live much of a life with hardly any money. well,we'll see how it goes.
i got up at ten o'clock this morning,which is early for me. if i can,i usually get up around noon,which is ten hours of sleep/rest since i usually go to bed at 2 a.m.
most days though i have to get up around 11 a.m. because i have chores to do before work or even on my so-called 'days off'.
for some reason,i felt ambitious this morning,a very rare event,but it was great. so i got up and did my last load of laundry for the weekend and took down my garbage. it was dark,cloudy and humid this morning,but later on the sun came out and the barometric pressure went up,meaning it was dryer and the air was no longer stagnant,which is much more as i like it. it's been a really nice day,in the seventies (fahrenheit) i'd guess. almost too hot for my skin condition,but i didn't quite break out into a rash,so that's good.
after lunch and finishing laundry,mom and i went out for a walk. it is lilac season and when we walk by some of the lilac bushes,the scent is soooo heavenly. lilac season is so short,but i love it. we also walked a bit in the cemetary down the street. it's such a beautiful place for living human beings...different kinds of trees,away from cars and noise... i love it.
when we got back,i went out to finish my grocery shopping. i also stopped at the video store and i think it took me a half hour to choose something. i was looking through the older videos because they are cheaper to rent. i'm extremely fussy. i like drama the best,but i've seen many of them or they don't appeal to me. ah,well...i was actually going to rent 'what about bob?' with bill murray which is a comedy about someone with obsessive compulsive disorder and his psychiatrist. anyway,it wasn't there. so i got a drama starring demi moore which is about a women who lives two lives and one of them is just a dream,and the whole premise of exploring 'reality' interests me. i also got 'bringing out the dead' because nicholas cage is in it. i don't think he's that great an actor,but i think he has beautiful eyes and has charisma,so i rented that. ha.
as i was on my way to the supermarket,i bumped into the ex-wife and two daughters of a friend of mine who died last november. he wasn't much older than me,and died of cancer. it's still weird to think of him not being here on this planet any more. when he died,i especially felt bad for his daughters,who are 11 and 7,because they were close to him,he was their dad,and they are so young.
anyway,they looked good. i hadn't seen them in a long time. the older daughter used to hang out with me for a couple of hours every week at the natural food store waiting to go home with her dad. i asked her if she remembered me,and she did. it was really great to see them.
and this being memorial day,i thought that was so appropriate.
i came home and i've been reading a diary that i found by night haunter. every once in a while i find a diary and read it from start to finish. night haunter is very thoughtful and interesting. i can relate to a lot of what he says.
i cranked up some great tunes. first,u2's 'in god's country' from joshua tree. i looove that song and played it really loud. then i listened to my 'signature song' by foo fighters...'aurora'. after that,i listened to r.e.m.'s beautiful album
'murmur'. if you haven't ever heard the song 'perfect circle' you haven't lived,in my opinion. i also got to hear it a few times live back in '89,the year i saw them play six times in one year. for a person who likes to stay home,that was a lot for me! the good ole days. and one of these days,maybe i'll come up with some new good ole days!
(that may be the ben and jerry's speaking. i'm allowing myself chocolate only once a week in order to heal my digestion,and my choice of chocolate is a pint of b&j's halfbaked frozen yogurt...it's half chocolate chip cookie dough and half chocolate fudge brownie. it was,yes,orgasmic!)