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bluegreen17) wrote2006-11-29 08:29 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2006-11-29 08:29 pm
baby,i
when the going gets tough,it's time to start watching 'band of brothers' again. i'm too old to be going through a midlife crisis (unless i live to be 96,which,really,doesn't sound like much fun at the moment,but who knows...),but i'm not feeling too great these days.
to distract myself from thinking about how much my life insurance covers,i'm thinking about what choice of looney bins i have...well,i suppose i'll probably get through. going through depressive episodes it's easier in some ways as one gets older (you know you've survived it before,and occasionally can use some tricks you've picked up over the years to make you feel better,though they work sometimes and sometimes not) and tougher in other ways (you're tired of dealing with depressive episodes and wonder why you should try to survive them because there's a lot less future than there used to be.)
anyway, BoB got me through some tough times from the holiday season before my mom died of als through her death in the spring of 2004. for many months,i watched some of it every day. there are...god,i can't remember how many episodes,because it's been a while since i watched it...but i think there are 8. and it's some of the best television drama i have ever seen.
a few musical asides while i'm writing:
1.i still adore coldplay's 'moses' in spite of the horribly awkward lyrics and song title,because the song is so incredibly beautiful musically.
2. two songs that i love that are two short-'norwegian wood' by the beatles and 'knockin' on heaven's door' by bob dylan
3. two of my favorite all-time christmas songs are actually fifties rock (and i'm not generally crazy about fifties rock!)--'rockin' around the christmas tree' by brenda lee and 'jingle bell rock' by bobby helms.
4.probably my all-time traditional christmas carol is 'hark the herald angels sing' and darn it i forgot to tape charlie brown christmas last night,so i missed it.
5. i'm craving some late 80's cure music these days...especially the wonderfully sublime 'just like heaven'...oooh,those guitars....
thank goodness for music. and also thank goodness for:
the fact that of the few things i can still eat,i like some of them,like dried pineapple rings and turkey on sourdough bread. yum. and the first piece of chocolate fudge (one of my absolutely favorite foods ever) i'd eaten in ages and ages which i ate yesterday did not kill me.
my sisters. like me,they are usually busy and/or overwhelmed with life but i know they still love me,even if i get very very gloomy.
old school doctor who to distract me and amuse me with its funloving and silly stories and monsters,etc. especially doctors seven,six,five and four. time travel is love <3! hey,one of my first tv obsessions was 'time tunnel' in the early sixties...i loooved that show and used to playact it at recess in the schoolyard (when i wasn't trying to fly like mary poppins,though that was earlier,when i was in first grade. 'time tunnel', i believe was in third grade,which would be around '65 or so.) and who does not love spatial alchemy,eh sara? too bad they removed that tardis from the field down the street where it wasn't bothering anybody,in order to build an ugly over50tax writeoff condo.
*sigh*
but it's all good,right? maybe from a bigger perspective,it is,indeed. i like the richard bach quote...something like...'what the caterpillar calls the end of the world,the master calls a butterfly'. yeah,i like that.
to distract myself from thinking about how much my life insurance covers,i'm thinking about what choice of looney bins i have...well,i suppose i'll probably get through. going through depressive episodes it's easier in some ways as one gets older (you know you've survived it before,and occasionally can use some tricks you've picked up over the years to make you feel better,though they work sometimes and sometimes not) and tougher in other ways (you're tired of dealing with depressive episodes and wonder why you should try to survive them because there's a lot less future than there used to be.)
anyway, BoB got me through some tough times from the holiday season before my mom died of als through her death in the spring of 2004. for many months,i watched some of it every day. there are...god,i can't remember how many episodes,because it's been a while since i watched it...but i think there are 8. and it's some of the best television drama i have ever seen.
a few musical asides while i'm writing:
1.i still adore coldplay's 'moses' in spite of the horribly awkward lyrics and song title,because the song is so incredibly beautiful musically.
2. two songs that i love that are two short-'norwegian wood' by the beatles and 'knockin' on heaven's door' by bob dylan
3. two of my favorite all-time christmas songs are actually fifties rock (and i'm not generally crazy about fifties rock!)--'rockin' around the christmas tree' by brenda lee and 'jingle bell rock' by bobby helms.
4.probably my all-time traditional christmas carol is 'hark the herald angels sing' and darn it i forgot to tape charlie brown christmas last night,so i missed it.
5. i'm craving some late 80's cure music these days...especially the wonderfully sublime 'just like heaven'...oooh,those guitars....
thank goodness for music. and also thank goodness for:
the fact that of the few things i can still eat,i like some of them,like dried pineapple rings and turkey on sourdough bread. yum. and the first piece of chocolate fudge (one of my absolutely favorite foods ever) i'd eaten in ages and ages which i ate yesterday did not kill me.
my sisters. like me,they are usually busy and/or overwhelmed with life but i know they still love me,even if i get very very gloomy.
old school doctor who to distract me and amuse me with its funloving and silly stories and monsters,etc. especially doctors seven,six,five and four. time travel is love <3! hey,one of my first tv obsessions was 'time tunnel' in the early sixties...i loooved that show and used to playact it at recess in the schoolyard (when i wasn't trying to fly like mary poppins,though that was earlier,when i was in first grade. 'time tunnel', i believe was in third grade,which would be around '65 or so.) and who does not love spatial alchemy,eh sara? too bad they removed that tardis from the field down the street where it wasn't bothering anybody,in order to build an ugly over50
*sigh*
but it's all good,right? maybe from a bigger perspective,it is,indeed. i like the richard bach quote...something like...'what the caterpillar calls the end of the world,the master calls a butterfly'. yeah,i like that.
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did I always know your mother died of als and just forget? It's how mine died too a couple of years before.
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