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bluegreen17) wrote2007-04-08 08:11 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2007-04-08 08:11 pm
anyway i love you
i'm gonna fly
to where the sky meets the land
and the living is not planned
and the children can laugh just
cause they're living
easter is probably my favorite holiday, seeing as it represents (re)birth and beginnings and spring is my favorite season. and i love the pastel colors associated with easter,and it means the lilacs will be here soon,yes?
sometimes,though,in new england spring seems to get skipped over. sometimes we go from chilly to boiling. i remember my great disappointment in 2005 when it rained and rained and rained and was chilly and then it was june and it was in the 90's. and because of my sweat allergy i couldn't go outside to the minor league baseball game i had been looking forward to all winter. oh,well. i'm hoping that this year we will still get a spring. there's still time!
this week was challenging. at work,we were super busy. it seems that there's an easter shopping season now too. weird. and we were also understaffed as we so often are. extra busy/understaffed=bad combo! anyway,on tuesday i was working alongside my store manager and she instructed me to answer phones while also waiting on customers in front of me. i understand why she did that,but it was very frustrating and i have trouble focusing on more than one customer at a time,as there are oftentimes some incredibly complicated requests. i work in a bookstore,and a lot of people think if you work in a bookstore you know everything. well,as a matter of fact,i'm a black belt trivial pursuit player,but i don't know everything. *smirk* i'm sure people don't mean to be difficult,for the most part,and quite often the questions are fun and amusing and even more often i've found people to be very appreciative of my efforts.
nevertheless,trying to multitask like that,i start making stupid mistakes that slowed me down even more,and then i started feeling insecure and like i couldn't do anything right,and that my boss mustn't like me and must think i'm doing a bad job,even though that's not really the case. it was just one of those days.
i also ran into a snafu with getting some new stomach medication and had to call the doctor twice to get the right one. they prescribed something new and weird and my instincts told me that lower dosage but basically the same stuff would work better,and the nice nurse understood my point (and obviously the nurse pract. did too) when i explained my reasoning. but it took extra time and calls and trips to the drugstore to sort it all out.
uh,so. anyway,last week i was feeling lower than i had in quite a while. oh,and it also snowed on wednesday and i am soooo sick of winter and wanting it to be warmer and maybe dryer and nice open window weather that it just totally pissed me off. and then i'm sure it added to my overall sadness.
today,easter,was cold but at least it was sunny. yeah,sun! i felt a bit sad at the beginning of the day because it was easter and i wanted to go take a nice warm walk and that wasn't in the cards. nevermind that the sidewalks are still buried in snow. i didn't have the energy to go to my sister's house with the rest of the family for dinner. that makes me sad,too.
but i guess ultimately i just have taken it easy today and been good to myself and thinking better thoughts. my coffee frozen yogurt fix helped my brain too,though i have to offset it's affect on my stomach by eating a supper of salad,potato chips,pineapple rings and ginger brew. weird,but true. i also buy magnesium/calcium tablets to offset the extra sodium and phosphorus but i'm hoping this is transitional as i'm planning on improving my digestion if i can.
i found today that sad music didn't make me feel better,nor did happy music but then i put on the psychedelic furs 'pretty in pink' and then aha! pissed off music! yes! that made me feel better. then i listened to my police comp,especially 'message in a bottle' (thank you especially,stewart copeland,for your drumming!) later,i was looking for my psych furs 'world outside' cd and i stumbled on dan fogelberg's 'homefree' which i'd forgotten i had on cd. it was the first lp of his i ever bought,probably in 1977,during my first year of college when i was introduced to his music by a friend of a friend. it has quite a few sad but beautiful songs but also a couple of good perky fun songs. so i'm listening to that now,and i want to take back what i said to my sister,sara,who may be reading this. that is,all of his lyrics don't make me cringe. some of thm are quite good. i stand mistaken and self-corrected,even as i've always adored the instrumental parts.
anyway,i love you
everyday i get more sure
anyway,i love you
more and more and more and more
yup,still loving life here on this easter day.
peace in and out
to where the sky meets the land
and the living is not planned
and the children can laugh just
cause they're living
easter is probably my favorite holiday, seeing as it represents (re)birth and beginnings and spring is my favorite season. and i love the pastel colors associated with easter,and it means the lilacs will be here soon,yes?
sometimes,though,in new england spring seems to get skipped over. sometimes we go from chilly to boiling. i remember my great disappointment in 2005 when it rained and rained and rained and was chilly and then it was june and it was in the 90's. and because of my sweat allergy i couldn't go outside to the minor league baseball game i had been looking forward to all winter. oh,well. i'm hoping that this year we will still get a spring. there's still time!
this week was challenging. at work,we were super busy. it seems that there's an easter shopping season now too. weird. and we were also understaffed as we so often are. extra busy/understaffed=bad combo! anyway,on tuesday i was working alongside my store manager and she instructed me to answer phones while also waiting on customers in front of me. i understand why she did that,but it was very frustrating and i have trouble focusing on more than one customer at a time,as there are oftentimes some incredibly complicated requests. i work in a bookstore,and a lot of people think if you work in a bookstore you know everything. well,as a matter of fact,i'm a black belt trivial pursuit player,but i don't know everything. *smirk* i'm sure people don't mean to be difficult,for the most part,and quite often the questions are fun and amusing and even more often i've found people to be very appreciative of my efforts.
nevertheless,trying to multitask like that,i start making stupid mistakes that slowed me down even more,and then i started feeling insecure and like i couldn't do anything right,and that my boss mustn't like me and must think i'm doing a bad job,even though that's not really the case. it was just one of those days.
i also ran into a snafu with getting some new stomach medication and had to call the doctor twice to get the right one. they prescribed something new and weird and my instincts told me that lower dosage but basically the same stuff would work better,and the nice nurse understood my point (and obviously the nurse pract. did too) when i explained my reasoning. but it took extra time and calls and trips to the drugstore to sort it all out.
uh,so. anyway,last week i was feeling lower than i had in quite a while. oh,and it also snowed on wednesday and i am soooo sick of winter and wanting it to be warmer and maybe dryer and nice open window weather that it just totally pissed me off. and then i'm sure it added to my overall sadness.
today,easter,was cold but at least it was sunny. yeah,sun! i felt a bit sad at the beginning of the day because it was easter and i wanted to go take a nice warm walk and that wasn't in the cards. nevermind that the sidewalks are still buried in snow. i didn't have the energy to go to my sister's house with the rest of the family for dinner. that makes me sad,too.
but i guess ultimately i just have taken it easy today and been good to myself and thinking better thoughts. my coffee frozen yogurt fix helped my brain too,though i have to offset it's affect on my stomach by eating a supper of salad,potato chips,pineapple rings and ginger brew. weird,but true. i also buy magnesium/calcium tablets to offset the extra sodium and phosphorus but i'm hoping this is transitional as i'm planning on improving my digestion if i can.
i found today that sad music didn't make me feel better,nor did happy music but then i put on the psychedelic furs 'pretty in pink' and then aha! pissed off music! yes! that made me feel better. then i listened to my police comp,especially 'message in a bottle' (thank you especially,stewart copeland,for your drumming!) later,i was looking for my psych furs 'world outside' cd and i stumbled on dan fogelberg's 'homefree' which i'd forgotten i had on cd. it was the first lp of his i ever bought,probably in 1977,during my first year of college when i was introduced to his music by a friend of a friend. it has quite a few sad but beautiful songs but also a couple of good perky fun songs. so i'm listening to that now,and i want to take back what i said to my sister,sara,who may be reading this. that is,all of his lyrics don't make me cringe. some of thm are quite good. i stand mistaken and self-corrected,even as i've always adored the instrumental parts.
anyway,i love you
everyday i get more sure
anyway,i love you
more and more and more and more
yup,still loving life here on this easter day.
peace in and out
Easter is a good sign!
We missed you at Easter dinner -- everyone was asking about you, including Dad. Seems he was concerned because you didn't eat when you had lunch with him last!
I think when people think of Dan Fogelberg, they think of "Same Auld Lang Syne" which IS as cheesy as it gets, and it's a story song so the lyrics are subpar. But he's got quite a range. On "Home Free" (I don't have the entire album) I love "The River" and wish he had done more rockin' songs (ala "As the Raven Flies").
Anyway, I hope you have a good week! I am dog tired so I'm going to bed now.. love you!
Re: Easter is a good sign!
the two songs i quote from here are the rockin' ones from 'home free',called 'long way home(live in the country) and 'anyway i love you'. i still love this album as much as i ever did.