bluegreen17 | another thing mom forgot

today mom said she needed help using the atm machine.yikes.it is all happening so fast,and i have to try not to worry about what will happen when i go back to work...i MUST go back to work...my finances are horrible...not to mention i will probably go crazy and lose my job if i don't...so who's going to watch mom if she can't get into a nursing home right away? my sisters and i are going to have to really brainstorm next week.

as it is,i'm wondering if i will be able to leave mom for a few hours at a time at all next week,and i need to,to do errands and for my mental health. i'm not going to take her with me to the dentist,though i suppose i could,but boring for her and awkward for other people.

and to top it off,i dont know how to use an atm machine...i haven't used one in years,because i try to make my finances as simple as possible.so,i told mom to tell my sister when she picks her up today that she needs help with that. yikes. this is getting really scary.

i am worried that if i leave my mom alone and am putting all the people who live in this building in danger,and that feels like a heavy weight upon me. yet the only person around who can help right now is my sister who's husband was just diagnosed with cancer. how can i bother her?

i'd better stop...i'm just worrying myself to death here and i'm hoping lunch will digest today...i took some ginger and damn that had better help.