just another little bunch of anxiety

[bluegreen17]

last week i stressed over getting myself to my food stamp appointment. i really need the help. i did manage to make it,and then felt horrible afterwards,because i had to forego sleep to do so. (not sleeping gives me a small chemical boost that i pay for later,plus if i don't go to bed,i don't have to try to get out.) anyway,now i'm stressing because i have to have some paperwork completed for the $100 long term disability payment i get from the amount i put in when i was working,and if i don't get the paperwork completed by myself and my therapist and in by monday,my case will supposedly be closed. i am so far behind on everything because not surprisingly my depression has been very bad this winter. i don't have any clean clothes,and i need to get myself washed up (can't even remember when i last washed my hair,because showers are too tiring and i do everything in stages.)for my therapy appointment tomorrow. and sadly,this is not anything really new. i'm constantly trying to get to appointments to keep myself going,but having a hard time doing either! oh,well,that's my life. i just hope i can appeal to the insurance company because my therapist won't have enough time to get all that paperwork in by monday,and if they have no leeway i'm screwed. it's ironic,because the reason for my tardiness is the very reason i can't work and need the income in the first place. *sigh*

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[maevele.livejournal.com]

I want exceptions made for those of us whose illnesses or disabilities actively interfere with the actual process of getting help. Like, If you give me a form with a deadline to have it in, I will freak out and not be able to get it back on time. It's one of my symptoms. They should be able to take that into consideration, and let me do it online, or ignore the deadline, or something, but no, instead, I miss the deadline and wind up uninsured for months.

[bluegreen17]

it makes no sense. i brought my paperwork in to my therapist,who had to fill out most of it,and she OFFERED to call the ins. company for me, so that makes me feel better. she will probably be able to convince them to give me a few days and why i need it.