bluegreen17 | (no subject)

ah,it's a beautiful day. very mild,almost 70 degrees. well,not very sunny but the warmth is nice. and i want to go outside,but i need to make myself presentable. i need to wash up and get dressed. so i am trying to work up the energy to do that. and it's already 2 in the afternoon. fortunately,there's a lot more sunlight in the day these days. that helps. even more than wanting to enjoy the nice air,though,i am desperate for some sugar. i am cutting down by just buying one small bit at a time,rather than packages of things (because i tend to eat everything in site sugarwise way too often). and i really want something sweet today. i actually did have a couple of small blocks of chocolate that is %80 cocoa. i buy the high cocoa content because it is better for you and i'm not likely to eat the whole thing because it's not really that sweet. what i really want is a nice chocolately brownie! brownies are the best,i think. dunkin donuts' doesn't have brownies anymore and i don't like to eat donuts (actually,i looove doughnuts) because they are fried. and chocolate cake isn't as good as a brownie. well,maybe if it's cheesecake...anyway,finding single servings doesn't give one much choice. and i have no energy to prepare things. but because sugar is the only sure thing,it can motivate me,though it didn't yesterday. i actually didn't even go out and buy sweets yesterday! i was able to watch the red sox on fox (one of six or so out of 120 games they play i can see on tv) so i did that. i enjoyed it. also,i talked to my sister rachel on the phone for an hour. and later on i took a 3 hour nap (before my 12 hour night sleep,sad but true) and then i got up and did some laundry while i watched 'lark rise to candleford' on tv and it was great. the ending voiceover said something like how we are always children on the inside no matter how old we get and that is so true.

so i will now move on to my next procrastination source,as i try to work up that energy...it will be nice once i get out,if i get out!