my daily challenge with food

[bluegreen17]

...is finding food i have the energy to prepare (usually meaning taking out of the fridge/freezer and popping in the microwave...that's just the way it is),that i can afford,and that doesn't make me sick .iin the short or long term. i find that sometimes 'junk food' digests better than good food in the short term,but eventually will most likely make things worse. oh,also,my brain wants things (sugar and caffeine) that don't exactly enhance the health of my body. and when my body is not feeling well,it's harder to cheer up my brain,and round and round. and oh yeah,there's this hashimoto's,which is an autoimmune response that thinks your thyroid gland is bad and attacks it. so if you eat more seafood to get more iodine,this body of mine attacks my thyroid even more when it sees that the thyroid is being more successful. i'm just one of many who has these kinds of challenges and some much much bigger.

i use a little cognitive stuff on myself by telling myself life is an adventure and these things are challenges. that works because it's not untrue. when i wake up in the morning,or whenever i wake up,my brain has to work up to this again. i start with 'life is horrible and i'm worthless' and work my way up. with therapy,i'm getting better at talking myself up to myself,and give myself more slack. in doing so,it takes less time. some days i do better than others. and that's just my brain. sometimes i wake up and my brain is a mess and i work up to it being better,but then my body may still not have the energy to get out of bed,so i stay in bed until i can sort of get brain and body in sync. to get enough rest for brain and body,i stay in bed from 7 to 16 hours a day,averaging 12 hours in the winter and 10 in the summer...meaning may, june,july and august,more or less.

yes,it's been quite a trip,and continues to be one way or the other.

Comments

[daisydumont.livejournal.com]

i relate to the food thing. living alone, i don't cook because why bother? there's no motivation. then i get all bored with not enough flavorful foods, and i'm into the cookies. sugar and caffeine, mmmm. i'd be so much better off with good food cooked well, but i can't work up the oomph to fix it. maybe i will start looking at this as a challenge. (but i hate challenges. hmmm.)

[sophy.livejournal.com]

Ugh, yes, so often my food choices are "tastes good and only takes the number of spoons I have available" or "tastes okay and is good for me but will take spoons out of the coming days to prepare". It's ... ugh-ful.