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bluegreen17) wrote2002-09-26 11:40 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-09-26 11:40 pm
my fun little solo road trip part 1
right now i'm cranky. could be because supper didn't settle too well and it usually doesn't. lunch has been okay but i think it's just because i've been eating ben and jerry's frozen yogurt for dessert and it coats my stomach or something....but that's not a solution because i think dairy products initially soothe heartburn but then turn acidic in the body,so it's really making the problem worse even if it doesn't seem so,which is really confusing.
also,now we have to start looking for nursing homes and i really don't want to have one more thing 'to do' since i hardly get anything done anyway.
i've been lazy this vacation for the most part,but i need to be. at least i haven't been too bitchy with my mother. she told my sisters i've been 'pleasant' which is really funny.the wellbutrin is not getting me motivated,but it can't do everything...it's keeping me from killing myself. i guess that's a good thing. (read that as a wry comment...it does contain humor believe it or not.)
maybe if i am not so depressed for a long period of time i will get some psychological energy back and gradually get motivated,but who knows. i would hope so,but i can't bank on it.
(ugh.damn i hate heartburn.)
now about my fun road trip today...
well,first i accomplished a couple of things (clap clap). i put money in the bank for rent and bills and i mailed another bill,the credit card that i put the $70 worth of adderall my insurance wouldn't pay for. i still may appeal it...if i get around to it. yeah,right.
i went into the dollar store just to look around at the toys,and i thought i'd check out the office supplies too.i love toys and office supplies!
to my delight,i found something i needed for a project i thought up last week.
i was partly inspired by this flemish movie i watched called pauline and another name with a 'p'. it was about an old woman who was mentally handicapped and lived with one sister who died so she had to go to live with another sister who wasn't used to her. (wow.kinda sounds vaguely familiar,except substitute mother)
anyway,she liked pretty pictures and colors and would paste them in her scrapbook.
last week we got in better homes and gardens and on the cover was a picture of a red drapery and the color of it was slightly metallic and i just love that color and it cheered me up just looking at it. so i thought,sort of like aromatherapy is to the olfactory senses,that beautiful pictures can be to the visual senses,also known as eyes but i guess would include the brain too!
and since i have access to tons of old magazines that unfortunately simply get thrown out (we rip off the covers and send those back so the magazine is no longer able to be sold and we are supposed to destroy them,but we often take them home. it's cool as long as we don't sell 'em. i give some of my old free magazines to the library) i decided i would make my own album of pretty pictures which i could change from time to time. so i figured i'd get a photo album or some of those plastic pages you can put things in in a binder and make my own book. i figured i'd have to go to one of the big office supply stores to get those. well,voila,there was a big box of 50 for one dollar! and not only that,they had piles of those boxes of 50! i pondered and only bought one box but i may get one or two more. i also want to make a 'book' of some of my writings that i'll print off my journals,and a book of clippings of things i'm interested in. so i still need to get some binders,but it's a start. it's just a silly fun thing.
i also got a blank book that has a metallic silver cover and i think i'm going to put favorite quotes in that one. and i found a red photo album for smaller pictures. (i wanted most of the 'books' to be 8 1/2 by 11 so i could put average size magazine pages in them.) so,all that for 3 bucks!
stupidly,i felt guilty for buying stuff for myself and not my mother but i didn't really see anything for her.
also,now we have to start looking for nursing homes and i really don't want to have one more thing 'to do' since i hardly get anything done anyway.
i've been lazy this vacation for the most part,but i need to be. at least i haven't been too bitchy with my mother. she told my sisters i've been 'pleasant' which is really funny.the wellbutrin is not getting me motivated,but it can't do everything...it's keeping me from killing myself. i guess that's a good thing. (read that as a wry comment...it does contain humor believe it or not.)
maybe if i am not so depressed for a long period of time i will get some psychological energy back and gradually get motivated,but who knows. i would hope so,but i can't bank on it.
(ugh.damn i hate heartburn.)
now about my fun road trip today...
well,first i accomplished a couple of things (clap clap). i put money in the bank for rent and bills and i mailed another bill,the credit card that i put the $70 worth of adderall my insurance wouldn't pay for. i still may appeal it...if i get around to it. yeah,right.
i went into the dollar store just to look around at the toys,and i thought i'd check out the office supplies too.i love toys and office supplies!
to my delight,i found something i needed for a project i thought up last week.
i was partly inspired by this flemish movie i watched called pauline and another name with a 'p'. it was about an old woman who was mentally handicapped and lived with one sister who died so she had to go to live with another sister who wasn't used to her. (wow.kinda sounds vaguely familiar,except substitute mother)
anyway,she liked pretty pictures and colors and would paste them in her scrapbook.
last week we got in better homes and gardens and on the cover was a picture of a red drapery and the color of it was slightly metallic and i just love that color and it cheered me up just looking at it. so i thought,sort of like aromatherapy is to the olfactory senses,that beautiful pictures can be to the visual senses,also known as eyes but i guess would include the brain too!
and since i have access to tons of old magazines that unfortunately simply get thrown out (we rip off the covers and send those back so the magazine is no longer able to be sold and we are supposed to destroy them,but we often take them home. it's cool as long as we don't sell 'em. i give some of my old free magazines to the library) i decided i would make my own album of pretty pictures which i could change from time to time. so i figured i'd get a photo album or some of those plastic pages you can put things in in a binder and make my own book. i figured i'd have to go to one of the big office supply stores to get those. well,voila,there was a big box of 50 for one dollar! and not only that,they had piles of those boxes of 50! i pondered and only bought one box but i may get one or two more. i also want to make a 'book' of some of my writings that i'll print off my journals,and a book of clippings of things i'm interested in. so i still need to get some binders,but it's a start. it's just a silly fun thing.
i also got a blank book that has a metallic silver cover and i think i'm going to put favorite quotes in that one. and i found a red photo album for smaller pictures. (i wanted most of the 'books' to be 8 1/2 by 11 so i could put average size magazine pages in them.) so,all that for 3 bucks!
stupidly,i felt guilty for buying stuff for myself and not my mother but i didn't really see anything for her.