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bluegreen17) wrote2002-09-29 05:36 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2002-09-29 05:36 pm
as good as it gets
i'm tired and i only got out of bed five hours ago! ha.
i need to go to the grocery store with mom and i don't feel like it. didn't finish lunch until 3:30 even though i got out of bed at noon! it's fortunate that i only eat two meals a day and that i go to bed late so it's not that big a deal to have a late supper (and it could be a big deal if i went to bed earlier,because it isn't too good to go to bed less than 3 hours after mealtime because of the reflux problem.)
anyhoo,i'm procrastinating again and i'm enjoying writing here with my leaves motif all cheery on the page!
one thing that has been nice about my vacation is that i was able to do things at a slower pace and i was able to be lazy. only thing is,now i've got really lazy habits! well,anyway,i'm thinking i may sleep better when i'm tired from work,so that would be a good thing.
i'm panicking a wee bit because since my mother is only going to be here on weekends,i don't know if it will be fair for her to still pay the utilities,which are usually about $150 a month. the deal is i've been paying the rent of $675 a month and she's been paying that,instead of the 50/50 way she used to do it. i offered to do it that way a while ago,since my mother has only 550 dollars or so a month income and has to pay for several medications as well. in retrospect i wish i had asked for more help from my sisters,but on the other one one sister has spent tons of time and some money and the others have spent money helping mom too,though probably not as much as i,since it's like $300 dollars more for me per month.
anyway,since my sisters will probably be buying food for my mom,maybe they will need that money. on the other hand,if they buy groceries for her now,maybe that will help make up for all the money i've spent and anyway,she still has food money even if she's not here all week. hmmm...i just mentioned this in an email to my sister and i hope she doesn't take me up on it. i need that money for the utilities as long as i am not able to get a roommate or move out. she brought something up and maybe i misunderstood her. i'm hoping she'll write back and say no,no,you still need help with the utilities!
god,i worry. anyway...
last night i watched don juan demarco which was pretty good. i was surprised that i liked marlon brando's character but i thought he was great. i didn't really agree with the movie's definition of 'love' but on the other hand i loved what it had to say about imagination and living life and society. unfortunely i then got a stupid annoying bryan adams song stuck in my head. ugh.
other than that,i think i've almost run out of movies to see. it would be different if there was a really great video store with more foreign and indy stuff,but not really. one place has a few more things,but not a lot.
plus i avoid it because i'm avoiding someone that i should call one of these days...i'm just not up to socializing with someone i'm not totally comfortable with (though i used to be,but i guess i feel shyer because i haven't seen him much in a long time,and i used to see him at work a lot). i guess that's a dumb reason to avoid that video store,eh?
if i bump into him i could just tell him i can't do anything right now (unless i bring my mother.ha!).
so,anyway,considering i'm in a bit of a draught with finding movies to watch,it's fortunate that i finally rented lord of the rings,loved it and then bought myself a copy. it's a great movie to watch over and over,not only because it's really long,but because it's so great. okay i've probably gushed enough about that movie and especially about hobbits...ha.i wish i lived in hobbiton,except they're not really into books. and in hobbiton,i would be the tall one,which hasn't been the case since first grade. (strangely i was one of the taller six year olds,but then people caught up and passed me by heightwise. i'm 5'2" though i've never felt really short even though my high school boyfriend was 6"2' and of course on the basketball team! i have a sister who is 4'11" after all and SHE does feel short though i don't know what's wrong with that. my 14 year old niece is now taller than me,and of course i'm starting to shrink.)
one of the things that has been great about seeing the lord of the rings (even though i didn't for about month after it was released...i just wasn't in the mood for a long epic every time i went to the video store...ha!)
is that i've gotten back into the books which are indeed as wonderful as they were 30 years ago.i'm almost finished reading a book called -hobbits,elves,and wizards:exploring the wonders and worlds of j.r.r. tolkien's the lord of the rings- which is very good. talks about symbolism and themes and tons of stuff i probably didn't notice before.i'm at the very end,and only haven't read the section on tolkien's beliefs and how they relate to the book and that might be my favorite part,since i'm always looking for MEANING. of course,i've sort of formed personal meanings,but that should be interesting,since he was a catholic and i was raised catholic.
also,i want to get the book about the languages and alphabets,particularly of the elves. i had a notebook in high school that had my name written on it in what someone called 'high elven'. (i think it was my geometry teacher.) anyway,high elven is a language,not an alphabet and it was really my name using the alphabet from the lotr. i've looked at the indexes at the end of volume 3 and i can't figure out how he figured out what letter went with which though. of course i googled it and found some wonderful resources on the net.
according to this book,tolkien fashioned sindarin,the more common language of the elves,on the pattern of welsh somewhat,which being a celtic language i'm sure is beautiful sounding. (though i've found that irish reminds me soundwise of both french and german...the harsher sounding bits.)
well,anyway.
the most important news i have is that both my tub/shower drain and my bathroom sink drain are working most excellently today after having drano'd them both recently. it won't last, so i have to savor that now.
that's as good as it gets.
i need to go to the grocery store with mom and i don't feel like it. didn't finish lunch until 3:30 even though i got out of bed at noon! it's fortunate that i only eat two meals a day and that i go to bed late so it's not that big a deal to have a late supper (and it could be a big deal if i went to bed earlier,because it isn't too good to go to bed less than 3 hours after mealtime because of the reflux problem.)
anyhoo,i'm procrastinating again and i'm enjoying writing here with my leaves motif all cheery on the page!
one thing that has been nice about my vacation is that i was able to do things at a slower pace and i was able to be lazy. only thing is,now i've got really lazy habits! well,anyway,i'm thinking i may sleep better when i'm tired from work,so that would be a good thing.
i'm panicking a wee bit because since my mother is only going to be here on weekends,i don't know if it will be fair for her to still pay the utilities,which are usually about $150 a month. the deal is i've been paying the rent of $675 a month and she's been paying that,instead of the 50/50 way she used to do it. i offered to do it that way a while ago,since my mother has only 550 dollars or so a month income and has to pay for several medications as well. in retrospect i wish i had asked for more help from my sisters,but on the other one one sister has spent tons of time and some money and the others have spent money helping mom too,though probably not as much as i,since it's like $300 dollars more for me per month.
anyway,since my sisters will probably be buying food for my mom,maybe they will need that money. on the other hand,if they buy groceries for her now,maybe that will help make up for all the money i've spent and anyway,she still has food money even if she's not here all week. hmmm...i just mentioned this in an email to my sister and i hope she doesn't take me up on it. i need that money for the utilities as long as i am not able to get a roommate or move out. she brought something up and maybe i misunderstood her. i'm hoping she'll write back and say no,no,you still need help with the utilities!
god,i worry. anyway...
last night i watched don juan demarco which was pretty good. i was surprised that i liked marlon brando's character but i thought he was great. i didn't really agree with the movie's definition of 'love' but on the other hand i loved what it had to say about imagination and living life and society. unfortunely i then got a stupid annoying bryan adams song stuck in my head. ugh.
other than that,i think i've almost run out of movies to see. it would be different if there was a really great video store with more foreign and indy stuff,but not really. one place has a few more things,but not a lot.
plus i avoid it because i'm avoiding someone that i should call one of these days...i'm just not up to socializing with someone i'm not totally comfortable with (though i used to be,but i guess i feel shyer because i haven't seen him much in a long time,and i used to see him at work a lot). i guess that's a dumb reason to avoid that video store,eh?
if i bump into him i could just tell him i can't do anything right now (unless i bring my mother.ha!).
so,anyway,considering i'm in a bit of a draught with finding movies to watch,it's fortunate that i finally rented lord of the rings,loved it and then bought myself a copy. it's a great movie to watch over and over,not only because it's really long,but because it's so great. okay i've probably gushed enough about that movie and especially about hobbits...ha.i wish i lived in hobbiton,except they're not really into books. and in hobbiton,i would be the tall one,which hasn't been the case since first grade. (strangely i was one of the taller six year olds,but then people caught up and passed me by heightwise. i'm 5'2" though i've never felt really short even though my high school boyfriend was 6"2' and of course on the basketball team! i have a sister who is 4'11" after all and SHE does feel short though i don't know what's wrong with that. my 14 year old niece is now taller than me,and of course i'm starting to shrink.)
one of the things that has been great about seeing the lord of the rings (even though i didn't for about month after it was released...i just wasn't in the mood for a long epic every time i went to the video store...ha!)
is that i've gotten back into the books which are indeed as wonderful as they were 30 years ago.i'm almost finished reading a book called -hobbits,elves,and wizards:exploring the wonders and worlds of j.r.r. tolkien's the lord of the rings- which is very good. talks about symbolism and themes and tons of stuff i probably didn't notice before.i'm at the very end,and only haven't read the section on tolkien's beliefs and how they relate to the book and that might be my favorite part,since i'm always looking for MEANING. of course,i've sort of formed personal meanings,but that should be interesting,since he was a catholic and i was raised catholic.
also,i want to get the book about the languages and alphabets,particularly of the elves. i had a notebook in high school that had my name written on it in what someone called 'high elven'. (i think it was my geometry teacher.) anyway,high elven is a language,not an alphabet and it was really my name using the alphabet from the lotr. i've looked at the indexes at the end of volume 3 and i can't figure out how he figured out what letter went with which though. of course i googled it and found some wonderful resources on the net.
according to this book,tolkien fashioned sindarin,the more common language of the elves,on the pattern of welsh somewhat,which being a celtic language i'm sure is beautiful sounding. (though i've found that irish reminds me soundwise of both french and german...the harsher sounding bits.)
well,anyway.
the most important news i have is that both my tub/shower drain and my bathroom sink drain are working most excellently today after having drano'd them both recently. it won't last, so i have to savor that now.
that's as good as it gets.