bluegreen17 | giving in under torture

just lost a whole f*^%$# entry because my washer load got unbalanced and i leaped up to get it and hit the back button on my keyboard,thereby losing everything i'd just written.

as if i wasn't mad enough at life as it is! ha.

i've been extremely nauseated for four days. so i called the doctor's office and the nurse practioner is going to have me take a strong proton pump inhibitor for a month and then go back to the ranitidine and then eventually off of drugs altogether,i hope i hope! send all your best healing vibes,prayers,spells,etc. eveyone! thank you!

in better news,i had lunch with dad today,even if my lunch was only two yummy pieces of dry sourdough toast while dad had a nice tuna melt and a salad and two large glasses of iced coffee. i enjoyed his lunch vicariously. it was really good to see him since i haven't seen him in a few weeks and he is having his cardiac catheritization tomorrow morning. he seemed calmer than i am!

i also bumped into an old friend of mine,michael,whom i hadn't seen in a year,at the video store. that was great. i couldn't talk long because i had to get back home to see if the nurse had called back,but he suggested we get together, so maybe we will during my vacation week. that would be fun to catch up. so that kind of brightened up my day a bit!

so i'm going to go the grocery store and the drugstore and pick up my fix.
man,i wish i could have a ben and jerry's! if this drug works,i'll be tempted to eat all sorts of garbage!

so,yeah,they've got me,i'm logged into the pharmaceutical conspiracy...
i resisted longer than many,but i've failed nevertheless.
i've been assimilated.
damn,damn,damn.