did you write the book of love and do you have faith in god above?

[bluegreen17]

(february made me shiver)

"i met a girl who sang the blues
and i asked her for some happy news
but she just smiled and turned away..."

i've always liked that line from don maclean's american pie. i got to hear the entire seven minute version on the radio on my way to work today. i love that song so i sang along...when i listen to it at home i dance...'do you believe in rock and roll/can music save your mortal soul/and can you teach me how to dance real slow?'

it's sad and beautiful and i find it kind of cathartic. it was just finishing up when i got to work so i sat in my car to listen to the whole thing.

my commute was actually pretty kind and i got a good parking spot today,so that was nice.

i ended up calling the doctor and the nurse called me back and she talked to the nurse practitioner who is going to prescribe a slightly higher dose of wellbutrin for me. i'd rather try that than another medication but i'm not really thrilled about upping it either. still,if it helps me feel better...i feel like i just need to 'get through this' but 'this' looks like it had no end at the moment. but it has to end...i just hope it's not a bad end...i get more terrified every day wondering how i will survive financially. and otherwise. i figure for sure that menopause will kill me! sometimes your hormones really give you a tough time and many women experience depression during menopause...so what the hell will happen to me? ha,maybe i'll be HAPPY. now wouldnt that be freaky. i've always been rather contrary...

i'm gonna get some shuteye now. today wasn't too bad...i really didn't have a horrible time getting up at 8 a.m. to dig out my car after six hours of sleep,to my surprise. maybe i had psychologically prepared myself.

i'm hoping for sweet dreams.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......

Comments

[silverwraith.livejournal.com]

I LOVE that song! man, it's a good thing I have that CD in my portable CD case here at work, because now that I've read your post I have the undeniable urge to hear it. :)

[bluegreen17]

be sure to dance on your desk during the appropriate part. then you can listen to 'vincent' and weep. (i love THAT song too.)

[silverwraith.livejournal.com]

that whole album kicks ass. don't know what they would have thought of me dancing on the desk...but who cares, right? it's American Pie! it's worth it.

I listen to that album a lot at work, actually. its one that everyone seems to like. (unfortunately, Zep and Hendrix are not big around there. *pouts*)