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bluegreen17) wrote2003-02-27 02:06 am
bluegreen17) wrote2003-02-27 02:06 am
boring entry #3568b
feeling somewhat better. had a pretty good evening at work as i didn't get a huge shipment so things aren't too far behind.
maybe it was the espresso brownie i had for dessert at suppertime. though i was able to keep myself from snacking on sugar this evening,which is usually the doing of wellbutrin...maybe the higher dose is kicking in,but it's too soon to tell. caffeine does make me feel better,but it usually doesnt keep me from snacking later. and i snack because of emotional lows or boredom (which leads to emotional lows,so it's sort of a pavlovian response!) maybe the combination of the two was good,but i tend to get immune to the boost i get with chocolate or caffeine. seriously,i get a little high from it because i'm not supposed to eat it because of my currently...and possibly forever,faulty esophagal valve which doesn't keep stomach acid in my stomach,and caffeine makes the valve weaker. so i try not to eat chocolate and am thus sensitive to it in a good way mentally.
anyhow...we'll see how i am tomorrow. i tend to be in better spirits at night. the worst is the morning,generally and i feel slightly better when i finally push myself out of bed.i had a really bad morning today,and i wasn't surprised since i was depressed tuesday night. when i'm depressed at night it's a very bad sign,so i knew i wouldnt be doing well in the a.m.
nevertheless,i survived another mental hurricane.
well,this is boring. sometimes i try to entertain and sometimes i'm just writing to write. this is one of the latter.
just read another chapter of 'the loner's manifesto' and i'm really enjoying it. i thought my friend derek might like it (he's a loner type in that he doesn't care if you like him or not,but he happened to have been very lucky and found the perfect woman to marry. he said if he hadn't met her,he wouldn't have bothered to get married.)
derek definitely thought it looked good and bought himself a copy too.i saw him today and he told he loved it and was putting it on staff recommendations. and also that it was one of the best books he'd read in years...which is saying a LOT because he reads tons of books. he's a reading maniac.
maybe it was the espresso brownie i had for dessert at suppertime. though i was able to keep myself from snacking on sugar this evening,which is usually the doing of wellbutrin...maybe the higher dose is kicking in,but it's too soon to tell. caffeine does make me feel better,but it usually doesnt keep me from snacking later. and i snack because of emotional lows or boredom (which leads to emotional lows,so it's sort of a pavlovian response!) maybe the combination of the two was good,but i tend to get immune to the boost i get with chocolate or caffeine. seriously,i get a little high from it because i'm not supposed to eat it because of my currently...and possibly forever,faulty esophagal valve which doesn't keep stomach acid in my stomach,and caffeine makes the valve weaker. so i try not to eat chocolate and am thus sensitive to it in a good way mentally.
anyhow...we'll see how i am tomorrow. i tend to be in better spirits at night. the worst is the morning,generally and i feel slightly better when i finally push myself out of bed.i had a really bad morning today,and i wasn't surprised since i was depressed tuesday night. when i'm depressed at night it's a very bad sign,so i knew i wouldnt be doing well in the a.m.
nevertheless,i survived another mental hurricane.
well,this is boring. sometimes i try to entertain and sometimes i'm just writing to write. this is one of the latter.
just read another chapter of 'the loner's manifesto' and i'm really enjoying it. i thought my friend derek might like it (he's a loner type in that he doesn't care if you like him or not,but he happened to have been very lucky and found the perfect woman to marry. he said if he hadn't met her,he wouldn't have bothered to get married.)
derek definitely thought it looked good and bought himself a copy too.i saw him today and he told he loved it and was putting it on staff recommendations. and also that it was one of the best books he'd read in years...which is saying a LOT because he reads tons of books. he's a reading maniac.
smart-ass entry #1,683
*runs away quickly*
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