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bluegreen17) wrote2003-03-06 03:21 pm
bluegreen17) wrote2003-03-06 03:21 pm
much ado about something
every once in a while evil diane steps up to the plate. to pinch-hit i suppose.
last time it was to mock those in the south who were getting snow.
today i will mock the 'quarter-life crisis' as i mock the books i see on the shelf about the hitting 30 crisis.(personally 30 was fine...it was 31 that got to me). i'm 44 and i feel like,of course,any crisis that I am having is a real crisis,because it's ME. and i've lived through the quarter life,the thirty,the forty...in addition to having a general midlife crisis,i am now starting to get a bit edgey about my age 45 crisis. those 5's make me nervous,because they are half-way points..and then there'll be the BIG 5 plus the 0...if i live that long. ha.
i stumbled upon a webpage the other day that advertised a device that promised physical immortality. fuck,i don't want to be stuck on this freakin' planet forever...probably not in this galaxy,universe...whatever category follows that. sometimes,as some of you know,i don't even want to be here until tomorrow. or maybe another minute. heh.
but you know what? if you go beyond duality to what some folks term 'singularity'(i like that term and recently encountered it used by rodolfo scarfalloto in his there's-somthing-wrong-with-a-world-in-which-this-is-so-out-of-print book -the alchemy of opposites-) meaning not either 'this' or 'that'
but BOTH...if i hate this place so much it's because i love it.
and this segues rather nicely into a quote from a book by peter breggin* on the subject of depression which i wanted to share on my lj anyway...(how cosmic is that? i didn't plan on getting to this thought when i started with my mocking of the quarter-life crisis)
when people try to convince me that the depth of their suffering proves that they have a disease,i say just the opposite-that it proves that they are alive,that there's still hope,and that their hope should be proportional to their pain. they are endowed with an extraordinary capacity for psychogical and spiritual triumph. i do not say this glibly or in order to dismiss the pain or the enormously hard work of recovering and going on to live an even better life than previously seemed imaginable. nor do i want to diminish the risks involved,including suicide. life itself is a risk. but instead of trying to remove the risk with drugs-something that cannot be done,anyway-i want to help people take on the challenge.
i wish he practiced in my neighborhood....that's the kind of therapy i want.
my apologies to anyone going through a crisis of any sort (raise your hands if you're NOT...it will be easier to count that way) and just be aware that evil diane will have her say every once in a while.
we NEED our dark sides...because love doesnt exclude,love includes..
namaste (the divinity in me salutes the divinity in you)
~~~~~~~
*this is from -talking back to prozac-. breggin is very much opposed to the use of psychiatric drugs and i've been against them for a long time myself. as of this writing,though,i'm taking wellbutrin every day. and it got me through a time i don't think i could have survived any other way. but now i want to get off this drug and not start another because i have a real sense that this stuff is addictive even though they tell you it's not. well,it's like taking painkillers...but you don't take them all the time. i'm not making light of the fact that people go through A LOT of emotional pain...i've experienced it and i still experience and i see people suffering all around me...the suffering is real. everyone's gotta do what they gotta do. but i really want to find out what all this deprssion is ABOUT on a spiritual level...because i really think it's about something. and to my surprise, peter breggin does too. i knew he was anti-psychiatric drug,but i didnt' know he had the view that there's a spiritual dimension to all this depression,which i've felt is true for a long long time,but i've rarely found anyone who would address it from that point of view. at one point i asked my therapist how i would find someone to help me from that angle,and she had no idea of anywhere or anyone to refer me to.
last time it was to mock those in the south who were getting snow.
today i will mock the 'quarter-life crisis' as i mock the books i see on the shelf about the hitting 30 crisis.(personally 30 was fine...it was 31 that got to me). i'm 44 and i feel like,of course,any crisis that I am having is a real crisis,because it's ME. and i've lived through the quarter life,the thirty,the forty...in addition to having a general midlife crisis,i am now starting to get a bit edgey about my age 45 crisis. those 5's make me nervous,because they are half-way points..and then there'll be the BIG 5 plus the 0...if i live that long. ha.
i stumbled upon a webpage the other day that advertised a device that promised physical immortality. fuck,i don't want to be stuck on this freakin' planet forever...probably not in this galaxy,universe...whatever category follows that. sometimes,as some of you know,i don't even want to be here until tomorrow. or maybe another minute. heh.
but you know what? if you go beyond duality to what some folks term 'singularity'(i like that term and recently encountered it used by rodolfo scarfalloto in his there's-somthing-wrong-with-a-world-in-which-this-is-so-out-of-print book -the alchemy of opposites-) meaning not either 'this' or 'that'
but BOTH...if i hate this place so much it's because i love it.
and this segues rather nicely into a quote from a book by peter breggin* on the subject of depression which i wanted to share on my lj anyway...(how cosmic is that? i didn't plan on getting to this thought when i started with my mocking of the quarter-life crisis)
when people try to convince me that the depth of their suffering proves that they have a disease,i say just the opposite-that it proves that they are alive,that there's still hope,and that their hope should be proportional to their pain. they are endowed with an extraordinary capacity for psychogical and spiritual triumph. i do not say this glibly or in order to dismiss the pain or the enormously hard work of recovering and going on to live an even better life than previously seemed imaginable. nor do i want to diminish the risks involved,including suicide. life itself is a risk. but instead of trying to remove the risk with drugs-something that cannot be done,anyway-i want to help people take on the challenge.
i wish he practiced in my neighborhood....that's the kind of therapy i want.
my apologies to anyone going through a crisis of any sort (raise your hands if you're NOT...it will be easier to count that way) and just be aware that evil diane will have her say every once in a while.
we NEED our dark sides...because love doesnt exclude,love includes..
namaste (the divinity in me salutes the divinity in you)
~~~~~~~
*this is from -talking back to prozac-. breggin is very much opposed to the use of psychiatric drugs and i've been against them for a long time myself. as of this writing,though,i'm taking wellbutrin every day. and it got me through a time i don't think i could have survived any other way. but now i want to get off this drug and not start another because i have a real sense that this stuff is addictive even though they tell you it's not. well,it's like taking painkillers...but you don't take them all the time. i'm not making light of the fact that people go through A LOT of emotional pain...i've experienced it and i still experience and i see people suffering all around me...the suffering is real. everyone's gotta do what they gotta do. but i really want to find out what all this deprssion is ABOUT on a spiritual level...because i really think it's about something. and to my surprise, peter breggin does too. i knew he was anti-psychiatric drug,but i didnt' know he had the view that there's a spiritual dimension to all this depression,which i've felt is true for a long long time,but i've rarely found anyone who would address it from that point of view. at one point i asked my therapist how i would find someone to help me from that angle,and she had no idea of anywhere or anyone to refer me to.
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But I've got the experience.
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I'd be willing to share them with you if you're interested... but I'd require some effort on your part. It's not something I can proprly discuss in an LJ comment. It's a very long-term thing.
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my intuition tells me now isn't the time for me to take on a new project,as i've got a lot on my plate at the moment.
it's good to know,though,that i'm not crazy for thinking that there's a spiritual aspect to depression.
thanks for giving me that hope.
diane