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bluegreen17 ([personal profile] bluegreen17) wrote2002-07-07 01:38 am

eeyore and tigger

'And the truth is, when the ADD adult does join conversations, she often finds herself bored by the minute attention others devote to subjects that to her seem to skim only the surface of life.'
-gabor mate,in -scattered-

bingo.
i read this because part of the book is available online. now i am definitely going to seek out a copy of this book.

amazingly enough,i had several pleasant conversations this evening while at work,and even one interesting one! wow.

for some reason people were very talkative today and i found myself not minding engaging in a bit of chitchat which i usually dont bother with because it bores me. i felt a little more tolerant of boredom today,and therefore i was more sociable. it felt great. later on george asked me how my evening was going and i said 'pretty good' and he mentioned that the moon was in gemini.
i have noticed in the past that when the moon is in gemini people are more talkative and i'm in a better mood. in general,i'm pretty skeptical of astrology these days,but i have made that observation.

of course i'm a gemini myself as is my friend sean (his birthday is the day after mine). sean stopped by to pick up his paycheck and we got to talking about his current favorite novelist,henry james,and some other interesting things. i love talking about stuff like that.

so even though i went off to work feeling like eeyore,i came home feeling more like tigger.i love it when that happens.

it also occurred to me that i require outside help to feel happy most of the time,and that's one sure way to stay on the wheel of torture...which is why i borrowed a copy of 'the power of now' by eckhart tolle because i think in the long run,even if i do take a detour and take drugs to help me feel better and more focused and get some things accomplished, there's got to be a larger answer to get beyond suffering...if it's possible.and buddhists and others say that it IS possible...

well,we'll see.