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i'm procrastinating. i'm breathing. just stating the obvious.
i need to stay up all night as i have to drive to the city in the morning and be there for an appointment at 9 am. and it's going to be very very cold tomorrow morning. which is why i rarely go out in the morning in the winter if i can help it. i let the sun help me out when i have a choice. but in this case,i didn't have a choice. i have to go see someone to renew my food stamps. i think i applied for them about six months ago. i really need all the help i can get. anyway,since i have such a hard time getting out of bed,the best thing to do,even though it's doesn't feel very good,is to stay up. because it's easier to be painfully tired than to try to battle my way out of bed when i feel hopeless as i often do. and as i know that will happen...i don't dare go to bed if i want to be able to get a little help with my food expenses. i've heard they may be reduced because of another bill that takes away the money for food stamps. instead of some people skipping expensive lunches on the taxpayers dollars,they decided to help the kids school lunches by taking away from people's food stamps. yeah,that makes a lot of sense. anyway,right now the food stamps helps me to buy food for half the month.
i haven't even figured out how to get to the new office as they've moved. i hate it...all those one ways that don't show up in atlases or on google maps that can make me hella nervous. i also need to find all sorts of paperwork which is laughable...which i could insert a photo of my paperstrewn living room to show how hilarious it is,but i don't have a camera. i will just bring as much as i can in. not much has changed since last time. it's a pain in the ass,but it's not the contact person's fault. i certainly understand where there has to be some paperwork done,but it seems to be since i'm receiving social security disability and $100 a month from long term disability until august,because there's a cap on nervous conditions,even though there shouldn't be and we'll see if i find the energy to appeal that,since mental health is supposed to have parity in new hampshire,but last time i called the state agency they didn't seem to know much and didn't offer much help. anyway,if i'm on social security disability plus a hundred bucks a month,i think i qualify for food stamps? i don't have any rich relatives and i'm not dating to find a rich old guy. i have nothing to offer a rich old guy anyway! i have never been a candidate for being a trophy wife. not that i ever wanted to.
always wanted to be loved for the witty creative brave crazy useless plain jane i am,but biology does not favor me much,physically or mentally. somehow,though,i got some soul! anyway,that's another avenue i won't go down right now.
i finally went out and bought myself some turkey slices. i was getting sick of cheese sandwiches and mac and cheese! ramen is the cheapest food but i don't eat it because it's got tons of sodium in it. at least the stuff i have the energy to prepare.
well,better get to that paperwork hunt in between distracting myself with tumblr and sims! i had a couple of sims who simply wouldn't get out of bed and i had to sell their house to wake them up. i tried everything else! ha. that game cracks me up. meanwhile,their adorable daughter was taken from them,so i created an aunt to adopt her,and she's gonna be able to move back in with her parents,even though they can't get her back legally. it's not their fault they were so sick they couldn't get out of bed! so that's the best i can do. i've found that if one sim has a child taken away,there's a good chance the next child that age to be adopted will be the same child,so that's how i got her aunt to adopt her...
i need to stay up all night as i have to drive to the city in the morning and be there for an appointment at 9 am. and it's going to be very very cold tomorrow morning. which is why i rarely go out in the morning in the winter if i can help it. i let the sun help me out when i have a choice. but in this case,i didn't have a choice. i have to go see someone to renew my food stamps. i think i applied for them about six months ago. i really need all the help i can get. anyway,since i have such a hard time getting out of bed,the best thing to do,even though it's doesn't feel very good,is to stay up. because it's easier to be painfully tired than to try to battle my way out of bed when i feel hopeless as i often do. and as i know that will happen...i don't dare go to bed if i want to be able to get a little help with my food expenses. i've heard they may be reduced because of another bill that takes away the money for food stamps. instead of some people skipping expensive lunches on the taxpayers dollars,they decided to help the kids school lunches by taking away from people's food stamps. yeah,that makes a lot of sense. anyway,right now the food stamps helps me to buy food for half the month.
i haven't even figured out how to get to the new office as they've moved. i hate it...all those one ways that don't show up in atlases or on google maps that can make me hella nervous. i also need to find all sorts of paperwork which is laughable...which i could insert a photo of my paperstrewn living room to show how hilarious it is,but i don't have a camera. i will just bring as much as i can in. not much has changed since last time. it's a pain in the ass,but it's not the contact person's fault. i certainly understand where there has to be some paperwork done,but it seems to be since i'm receiving social security disability and $100 a month from long term disability until august,because there's a cap on nervous conditions,even though there shouldn't be and we'll see if i find the energy to appeal that,since mental health is supposed to have parity in new hampshire,but last time i called the state agency they didn't seem to know much and didn't offer much help. anyway,if i'm on social security disability plus a hundred bucks a month,i think i qualify for food stamps? i don't have any rich relatives and i'm not dating to find a rich old guy. i have nothing to offer a rich old guy anyway! i have never been a candidate for being a trophy wife. not that i ever wanted to.
always wanted to be loved for the witty creative brave crazy useless plain jane i am,but biology does not favor me much,physically or mentally. somehow,though,i got some soul! anyway,that's another avenue i won't go down right now.
i finally went out and bought myself some turkey slices. i was getting sick of cheese sandwiches and mac and cheese! ramen is the cheapest food but i don't eat it because it's got tons of sodium in it. at least the stuff i have the energy to prepare.
well,better get to that paperwork hunt in between distracting myself with tumblr and sims! i had a couple of sims who simply wouldn't get out of bed and i had to sell their house to wake them up. i tried everything else! ha. that game cracks me up. meanwhile,their adorable daughter was taken from them,so i created an aunt to adopt her,and she's gonna be able to move back in with her parents,even though they can't get her back legally. it's not their fault they were so sick they couldn't get out of bed! so that's the best i can do. i've found that if one sim has a child taken away,there's a good chance the next child that age to be adopted will be the same child,so that's how i got her aunt to adopt her...