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another day - been renewed again
Nov. 22nd, 2003 11:06 amKeep your mind on the goal, and as little as possible on what's in the way. When that cannot be avoided, keep your mind on solutions, and as little as possible on the problems.
-serge kalili king
a good reminder for me. i'm not sure exactly how to DO that though. it's like not thinking of a pink elephant,so think of a blue one. maybe that's it,not to NOT think of the pink elephant,but to think of the blue. and maybe you just get better at it with practice. my mind is terribly undisciplined,methinks. do you think it's possible to train such an old dog,so to speak? i like to think it's never too late.
lately,the obstacles are coming at me fast and furious. well,supposedly you energize what you focus on,and i spend lots of time worrying about things. so maybe i need to sit myself down and think about what i want,rather than constantly trying to obliterate what i don't want.
it's very basic and obvious,i know. but i'm dense about a lot of obvious things!
i'm trying to get out of a bad depression. i started taking wellbutrin again this week because if i didn't do something,i didn't know how much longer i could keep pushing myself to go to work every day,and if i don't work...well,you know. most of us are not trust fund babies,to put it mildly.
so far,i've had three nights of insomnia-i've hardly slept-and hand tremors. i'm hoping that like last time i took the stuff,i will eventually adjust. so far i don't feel any less depressed,but i must say that picking up serge king's urban shaman again,and reading some stuff at huna.org
has made me feel a little better for the moment.
there's a lot of stuff in the book i'm not particularly interested in at this time,but it's worth it for the chapter on the seven fundamental principles alone.
-serge kalili king
a good reminder for me. i'm not sure exactly how to DO that though. it's like not thinking of a pink elephant,so think of a blue one. maybe that's it,not to NOT think of the pink elephant,but to think of the blue. and maybe you just get better at it with practice. my mind is terribly undisciplined,methinks. do you think it's possible to train such an old dog,so to speak? i like to think it's never too late.
lately,the obstacles are coming at me fast and furious. well,supposedly you energize what you focus on,and i spend lots of time worrying about things. so maybe i need to sit myself down and think about what i want,rather than constantly trying to obliterate what i don't want.
it's very basic and obvious,i know. but i'm dense about a lot of obvious things!
i'm trying to get out of a bad depression. i started taking wellbutrin again this week because if i didn't do something,i didn't know how much longer i could keep pushing myself to go to work every day,and if i don't work...well,you know. most of us are not trust fund babies,to put it mildly.
so far,i've had three nights of insomnia-i've hardly slept-and hand tremors. i'm hoping that like last time i took the stuff,i will eventually adjust. so far i don't feel any less depressed,but i must say that picking up serge king's urban shaman again,and reading some stuff at huna.org
has made me feel a little better for the moment.
there's a lot of stuff in the book i'm not particularly interested in at this time,but it's worth it for the chapter on the seven fundamental principles alone.