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Feb. 17th, 2004 12:48 ami'm really upset right now. it's 12:45 a.m. and i want to go to bed-i'm tired.but my furnace doesn't want to work anymore. i'm not going to go out and check if the pilot light is out,because i'll just get colder and i can't relight it anyway.i can't call anyone until morning,and who knows when they will get here. i could go to my sister's-though i'd wake her up-but i don't like driving that road in the daytime,never mind the night. i can't f**kin' sleep if i'm cold,and i'm cold already,and it's only going to get colder and colder outside for the next six or seven hours.
i hate hate hate being cold! i'm not going to die but i'm really upset and depressed about this and i'm COLD. i don't know what to do or where to go,and this means i'll miss work tomorrow,probably. how the hell am i going to feel if i don't fuckin' sleep!
god,i'm cold. i'm cold. i hate it.
i don't deal well with things going wrong especially in the middle of the night...
i'm cold i'm cold i'm cold.
i fuckin' hate everything at the moment. i will try to calm down.
damn. damn. damn.
i'm such a wimp.
update edit: 8 a.m.
i'm still alive. i'm tired,as i didn't sleep well,and when i did i had nightmares of the furnace people saying they couldn't come out here for days! i don't know how people survive power outtages,especially in places like canada. i guess you survive and suffer,that's all.
it's not as cold in here as i thought it would be...i guess the advantage of living in a condo unit with noisy neighbors is that their heating kept me warmer than if i was alone,so hurrah for that!
the propane company guy called and woke me up,but i'm glad he called. the repair guy(s) will be over in an hour or so,so i think i'm going to crawl back underneath the two wool blankets i dug out (i usually don't use them because they're a pain to wash...now there's one more thing to worry about...i don't quite know how to dry wool blankets without a clothesline!) and rest until they show up.
i got up and cleaned the toilet,moisturized my face (my face gets all dry while i sleep so who wants to look at a flaky face? not me,and probably not anyone else) and hid my leftover valentine's candy! i slept in my clothes so i wouldn't have to get dressed in the cold this morning,but i don't think i'm tooo skanky.i don't think i smell,but i feel grungy of course. that's great for my ocd! ha.sure tmi. and yeah,i'm weird.
i hate hate hate being cold! i'm not going to die but i'm really upset and depressed about this and i'm COLD. i don't know what to do or where to go,and this means i'll miss work tomorrow,probably. how the hell am i going to feel if i don't fuckin' sleep!
god,i'm cold. i'm cold. i hate it.
i don't deal well with things going wrong especially in the middle of the night...
i'm cold i'm cold i'm cold.
i fuckin' hate everything at the moment. i will try to calm down.
damn. damn. damn.
i'm such a wimp.
update edit: 8 a.m.
i'm still alive. i'm tired,as i didn't sleep well,and when i did i had nightmares of the furnace people saying they couldn't come out here for days! i don't know how people survive power outtages,especially in places like canada. i guess you survive and suffer,that's all.
it's not as cold in here as i thought it would be...i guess the advantage of living in a condo unit with noisy neighbors is that their heating kept me warmer than if i was alone,so hurrah for that!
the propane company guy called and woke me up,but i'm glad he called. the repair guy(s) will be over in an hour or so,so i think i'm going to crawl back underneath the two wool blankets i dug out (i usually don't use them because they're a pain to wash...now there's one more thing to worry about...i don't quite know how to dry wool blankets without a clothesline!) and rest until they show up.
i got up and cleaned the toilet,moisturized my face (my face gets all dry while i sleep so who wants to look at a flaky face? not me,and probably not anyone else) and hid my leftover valentine's candy! i slept in my clothes so i wouldn't have to get dressed in the cold this morning,but i don't think i'm tooo skanky.i don't think i smell,but i feel grungy of course. that's great for my ocd! ha.sure tmi. and yeah,i'm weird.