i'm a scholar,not a doctor,dammit!

i have just been reading about how in some jewish sects,that study is considered a good deed,and that deeds are more important than belief. too bad i'm not jewish...in that sort of company i would be appreciated and considered a good person!

i'm pretty confused right now. that's not really new. it happens a lot when i'm depressed and trying to make sense of my depression and trying to fix it.

i tried something new this week. i tried to exercise a bit more self-discipline and push myself a bit and focus on things besides myself. it helped for about four days. i don't know if it was coincidence or connected,but by friday i was bored and restless at work and then i started getting more and more depressed again.

( and i'm sure you can tell where this is going so you might want to stop right there )

without any left behind

i only know the general premise of the 'left behind' series,but the very thought pisses me off. i really dont think it has anything to do with what jesus's message and christianity are all about. it's based on a literal interpretation of part of the book of revelations. it just doesn't make sense to me,that jesus,who hung out with tax collectors and prostitutes,would advocate exclusion.

i'm not a buddhist,but i really love the concept of bodhicitta...

the great vehicle of the Buddha's teaching is distinguished by its emphasis on cultivating bodhicitta, the attitude of loving-kindness and compassion towards all beings. Through such an altruistic attitude one seeks to attain liberation not for oneself alone, but for the benefit of all sentient beings without any exception or any left behind.

p.s. kind of interesting how this last bit makes jesus sound more like a buddhist than the average modern-day christian.